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So here's what's be going on a little bit. Orginially posted at afgirlfriends2.
So just today, ok that's a lie: within the last week, Tim has decided to be the sweetest boyfriend ever. Like seriously. He misses me and can't wait to see me and is begging me to come to Virginia even though he knows I can't. And it really kind of makes me think, why is it now that this is happening? Now that I'm starting to let him be a little more. Not that I'm leaving him or looking at anyone else more it's just that I'm starting to not call him every second I have free or bug him to talk to me even though we just got off the phone twenty seconds ago. Really I'm just giving up on being overly clingly, which I am surprised that I'm admitting because I have profusely denied being that for so long. But I know that it's a good thing, sometimes. We are fighting a lot less which means that we have either 1 stopped letting the stress of a long distance relationship get to us or 2 stopped caring as much about each other and each other's lives. I really hope it's the first one.
Don't get me wrong, I love Tim with all my heart and I know I do. I will not be with anyone other than him for the rest of my life I just wonder sometimes what's gonna happen to us between now and the day we pledge our lives to each other. Hopefully nothing but good things but I know that THAT is pruely wishful (and unrealistic) thinking. But we will be fine in the end... forever.
So just today, ok that's a lie: within the last week, Tim has decided to be the sweetest boyfriend ever. Like seriously. He misses me and can't wait to see me and is begging me to come to Virginia even though he knows I can't. And it really kind of makes me think, why is it now that this is happening? Now that I'm starting to let him be a little more. Not that I'm leaving him or looking at anyone else more it's just that I'm starting to not call him every second I have free or bug him to talk to me even though we just got off the phone twenty seconds ago. Really I'm just giving up on being overly clingly, which I am surprised that I'm admitting because I have profusely denied being that for so long. But I know that it's a good thing, sometimes. We are fighting a lot less which means that we have either 1 stopped letting the stress of a long distance relationship get to us or 2 stopped caring as much about each other and each other's lives. I really hope it's the first one.
Don't get me wrong, I love Tim with all my heart and I know I do. I will not be with anyone other than him for the rest of my life I just wonder sometimes what's gonna happen to us between now and the day we pledge our lives to each other. Hopefully nothing but good things but I know that THAT is pruely wishful (and unrealistic) thinking. But we will be fine in the end... forever.