"i try to say goodbye and i choke
try to walk away and i stumble
though i try to hide it it's clear
my world crumbles when you are not there"
 -from the song I'm listening to

Something became clear as I read your journal.
I'm sitting crosslegged on Paige's bed in jeans, a long black t-shirt and goosebumps; I smell like soap and hair and sleep and anxiety ( Read more... )

"i want us to grow."

I'm talking to Lyle and thinking.

this is a person who honestly cares about me. 
about what happens to me.
about what i do and think and feel.

i would spend the next lifetime regretting how much I've taken him for granted, but then I'd waste the time I could spend growing old with him.

my mother made me realize while we talked today ( Read more... )