Rehab L.4: the skin has dried and peeled
I feel so lonely right now.
I'm surrounded by six massive cats and silence. Not even iTunes is really helping much.
I could sleep in Ms. Lisa's room but I can't. It feels like an affront to her, sleeping in her bed.... but I can't budge Simba or Nala and they're laying directly across the bottom bunk.
I'm pretty much on the verge of that thing that isn't quite crying because it's on the inside, but it kind of is. I miss Lyle and that's making me feel even worse, since I can't imagine what's going to happen when he comes home tomorrow...I'm trying to keep in mind what he said about not assuming everything is going to break us up, but then this isn't like every little argument at all. This....is something that made me sick and keeps making me sick to think of.
I don't know and I can't keep thinking of it because being alone and depressed is not a smart idea. But all I can think is how I miss him and how everything is so mixed up and messed up and lonely...
About the most amusing thing today was making a banner for the random fan club thread for Daemon-
Daemon: Make me a fan club, then.
Me: Okei.
I made a pretty banner. Simple though. Psh. I didn't remember how to make the more complex ones.
....I'm so tired. Inside and out.
I'm surrounded by six massive cats and silence. Not even iTunes is really helping much.
I could sleep in Ms. Lisa's room but I can't. It feels like an affront to her, sleeping in her bed.... but I can't budge Simba or Nala and they're laying directly across the bottom bunk.
I'm pretty much on the verge of that thing that isn't quite crying because it's on the inside, but it kind of is. I miss Lyle and that's making me feel even worse, since I can't imagine what's going to happen when he comes home tomorrow...I'm trying to keep in mind what he said about not assuming everything is going to break us up, but then this isn't like every little argument at all. This....is something that made me sick and keeps making me sick to think of.
I don't know and I can't keep thinking of it because being alone and depressed is not a smart idea. But all I can think is how I miss him and how everything is so mixed up and messed up and lonely...
About the most amusing thing today was making a banner for the random fan club thread for Daemon-
Daemon: Make me a fan club, then.
Me: Okei.
I made a pretty banner. Simple though. Psh. I didn't remember how to make the more complex ones.
....I'm so tired. Inside and out.