whats wrong with me lately...

[phoenix_girlnow]

i cant stop crying right now
so much is happening
someone i love might kill themselves tonight
another person i love is dealing with their friend
who i believe just did something very bad
an lots of other problems in their life
im thinking of old habits again
im beging to lose my friends
i feel like a loner now
i always feel alone
even though many people are around me
i know people want to help
but i wont let you
im sorry
school is not helping
i think i might actually fail a class
this is so stressful
an i dont see it ending soon
i dont know what to do
so if i seem distant please forgive me
an dont offer to help
i wont listen, but
thanks for at least reading this

~Lauren < / 3