Go PHI MU!
It's been a long time since I really sat down to write on this thing! Wow, senior year!! Recruitment is going really well! I'm excited about our potential new members. Now that I'm a senior the process seems much more serious and important. I'm a little sad about a few things but otherwise its been fun and crazy like always! Plus, Jenn's coming to this weekend's events, so it'll even better.
My niece is crawling! Its so adorable! I miss her so much much much. She is getting so big and growing up too fast for me. It seems too soon for her to be turning one year in December (that's only three months away!!). Whew, this is a new thing for me. But I have to admit, Mindy's a great mom and I love being with the two of them.
I'm really hoping things get less stressful for Becky. She's having a tough time so far this year with her friendships and I feel really bad for her. Its nothing I can directly help with so I listen. But I wish I could fix it for her, make it better and not so much drama. She deserves to have one stress-free school year (aside from school-work stress, which is inevitable). But no people-drama. Seems really surreal that Boo and Jace will be married in less than two years! Then I'm sure I'll be Aunt Chel for her kids in less than four---wow, crazy.
I did Race for the Cure this weekend with my mom and some Phi Mu's and it was great. I miss hanging out with my mom just for fun. Lately its all about work or something and we don't just go shopping or to a bookstore or anything. I miss it a lot.
I had an odd dream the other night, and I'm not sure what to make of it. In the dream, an ex and I were sitting in a room, which I assume was mine (you know, when you *know* its your even though it doesn't resemble your real room?). Then we start talking about the past and I tell him I wish it hadn't happened because I'm not the same girl anymore and I can't get that piece of me back. He and I always said we didn't believe in regrets but I'm kind of rethinking that. Not so much that I regret it, but that if given the chance to relive that year of my life again, I'd do it differently. I'm not sure certain people would be in that re-done year at all. Especially the ones I've let go of in the past year. Its weird how quickly someone can enter your life, make a huge impact and just as quickly leave again. But what was weird about this dream was that it was like talking to my best friend, so comfortable talking about that really rough part of my college life. And it didn't feel awkward or painful or angry, nothing. It seemed really real, and I woke up pretty upset, because I haven't thought of those things or him in a really really long time. I don't think I really regret it, or even would choose another way, but still its weird that I dreamed that. I'm a psychoanalytic-oriented psych major and I'm having trouble decoding that one! Maybe its better left coded and out of true awareness for me.
I really like being a senior tho. Its nice having things a little figured out. And now I'm finally starting to get the hang of this whole process (now that I'm about to leave! hehehe). Shout out to my girl Claire, miss ya honey (call me soon!), and Jenn who is my bestest Walmart-girltalk buddy.
My niece is crawling! Its so adorable! I miss her so much much much. She is getting so big and growing up too fast for me. It seems too soon for her to be turning one year in December (that's only three months away!!). Whew, this is a new thing for me. But I have to admit, Mindy's a great mom and I love being with the two of them.
I'm really hoping things get less stressful for Becky. She's having a tough time so far this year with her friendships and I feel really bad for her. Its nothing I can directly help with so I listen. But I wish I could fix it for her, make it better and not so much drama. She deserves to have one stress-free school year (aside from school-work stress, which is inevitable). But no people-drama. Seems really surreal that Boo and Jace will be married in less than two years! Then I'm sure I'll be Aunt Chel for her kids in less than four---wow, crazy.
I did Race for the Cure this weekend with my mom and some Phi Mu's and it was great. I miss hanging out with my mom just for fun. Lately its all about work or something and we don't just go shopping or to a bookstore or anything. I miss it a lot.
I had an odd dream the other night, and I'm not sure what to make of it. In the dream, an ex and I were sitting in a room, which I assume was mine (you know, when you *know* its your even though it doesn't resemble your real room?). Then we start talking about the past and I tell him I wish it hadn't happened because I'm not the same girl anymore and I can't get that piece of me back. He and I always said we didn't believe in regrets but I'm kind of rethinking that. Not so much that I regret it, but that if given the chance to relive that year of my life again, I'd do it differently. I'm not sure certain people would be in that re-done year at all. Especially the ones I've let go of in the past year. Its weird how quickly someone can enter your life, make a huge impact and just as quickly leave again. But what was weird about this dream was that it was like talking to my best friend, so comfortable talking about that really rough part of my college life. And it didn't feel awkward or painful or angry, nothing. It seemed really real, and I woke up pretty upset, because I haven't thought of those things or him in a really really long time. I don't think I really regret it, or even would choose another way, but still its weird that I dreamed that. I'm a psychoanalytic-oriented psych major and I'm having trouble decoding that one! Maybe its better left coded and out of true awareness for me.
I really like being a senior tho. Its nice having things a little figured out. And now I'm finally starting to get the hang of this whole process (now that I'm about to leave! hehehe). Shout out to my girl Claire, miss ya honey (call me soon!), and Jenn who is my bestest Walmart-girltalk buddy.