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I started writing a long post the other night to explain the previous post. But i got side tracked and will get back it it later hopefully.
Well it's my b-day, i feel very much the same as i'm sure you do too when your day rolls around. Except alot of people still have that excitement, that genuine happy feeling in the pit of your stomach just knowing what day is coming soon. Unfortunately i dont have that anymore. To me it's just another day, i'm a year older then last, a lot has happened and yet i feel the same.
I think the problem is that i dont remember the last birthday that i felt excited for, like actually have that "OMG it's coming up, in such 11 days" and count down as the first of the month comes. If i thnk really hard, it may have been elementary school, maybe 5th grade. Because after that nothing really mattered. I think i've been onthe verge of tears too many birthdays for it to be something to celebrate anymore or maybe i'm just a cynic now.
It's been more or less 2 years since i decided and said that no more would fall. 2 years since i stopped seeing or talking to him. Another date that just reminds me of the last time. Another reason i'm so jaded.
Oh well, last year was good considering, and hopefully the trend continues.
Heh, another reason i dislike b-days it's the only time people really get together other then good friends who you see fairly regularly. Its one of those events that people think so important to go to. It's just strange to me. Not saying it's a bad thing, it's just an annoyance.
Well that's my b-day rant i suppose.
ps. i'm actually feeling alright contrary to the post subject matter.
Anywho that's all i gots for now, have a good one! i hope to !
pps if you haven't listened to Discovery i dont know you :P
Well it's my b-day, i feel very much the same as i'm sure you do too when your day rolls around. Except alot of people still have that excitement, that genuine happy feeling in the pit of your stomach just knowing what day is coming soon. Unfortunately i dont have that anymore. To me it's just another day, i'm a year older then last, a lot has happened and yet i feel the same.
I think the problem is that i dont remember the last birthday that i felt excited for, like actually have that "OMG it's coming up, in such 11 days" and count down as the first of the month comes. If i thnk really hard, it may have been elementary school, maybe 5th grade. Because after that nothing really mattered. I think i've been onthe verge of tears too many birthdays for it to be something to celebrate anymore or maybe i'm just a cynic now.
It's been more or less 2 years since i decided and said that no more would fall. 2 years since i stopped seeing or talking to him. Another date that just reminds me of the last time. Another reason i'm so jaded.
Oh well, last year was good considering, and hopefully the trend continues.
Heh, another reason i dislike b-days it's the only time people really get together other then good friends who you see fairly regularly. Its one of those events that people think so important to go to. It's just strange to me. Not saying it's a bad thing, it's just an annoyance.
Well that's my b-day rant i suppose.
ps. i'm actually feeling alright contrary to the post subject matter.
Anywho that's all i gots for now, have a good one! i hope to !
pps if you haven't listened to Discovery i dont know you :P