if you don't give a damn, i don't give a FUCK
The rain falls on your days
giving you a reason for mysterious ways
behind doors the darkness falls
you pour a cup of cofee, and get talking walls
But you can blame it on me
and the person you thought I wanted you to be
but don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on.
Besides from days gone by
hours seem so slow you think you'll surely die
you decide to call up a friend
when she doesn't answer you are close to the end...
That's a good song. It's called "Blame it on Me" by Maria Mena.
Anyway. I can't even begin to describe my mood right now. I'm so confused about everything. One day I'm thinking I've got my relationship back, but the next day we're practically broken up? Ain't that some shit.
So I guess it's safe to assume that Matt and I are probably over for good this time. But that's hardly a good thing. He doesn't want me anymore, I think.. I also think he's too afraid to tell me that to spare my feelings. But it still hurts me a lot. I can't really do too much about that, so I'm just going to try to suck it up and move on. That's what you do in relationships that are over, right? ..oh well, I guess I'll have to find out.
What else is there to talk about... I haven't really talked to many people these past couple of weeks. I feel like a fuckin' hermit. I've been home almost every night. It's so weird. I was used to being out at least 3 or 4 times a week. Now it's like I'm lucky if I even get to see the moon at night. I'm a loser, what can I say?
I've also been working like, everyday for the past 3 weeks! I *NEVER* work on Tuesdays & Wednesdays. I love working down at the office. But there are somedays when I don't want to get out of bed. I literally have to roll myself out of bed, haha.. It's cool though. The receptionist that I work with is so awesome. She's so funny. And my boss? HAHA.. She's a riot. We went to her house today for lunch and watched her the doctor's wedding on tape. It was HILARIOUS. He was like, the only white dude there. [Well, he's Puerto Rican, but whatever.] It was great. Today was actually pretty slow. Not slow, maybe slow-paced? The days always go by so fast, though. I think it's because we usually have like an hour & a ½ - 2 hours for lunch. No complaints there.
ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!! Speaking of lunch. We went to Subway. As we were getting to pay, the lady in front of us asked for some water. So they gave her water, but in a really small cup. So the lady asked for a big cup of water and they told her they couldn't give it to her. She FLIPPED out.... She SLAMMED her hand down on the counter and said something like, "This is bullshit," and zoomed her pissed off ass out of there. I wanted to LAUGH SOOOOO HARD. But I couldn't. It's okay.
Uhm, Coral just called. I'm heading out the door. More laterrrrrr!
giving you a reason for mysterious ways
behind doors the darkness falls
you pour a cup of cofee, and get talking walls
But you can blame it on me
and the person you thought I wanted you to be
but don't you blame it on love
'cause you will regret it then, and from now on.
Besides from days gone by
hours seem so slow you think you'll surely die
you decide to call up a friend
when she doesn't answer you are close to the end...
That's a good song. It's called "Blame it on Me" by Maria Mena.
Anyway. I can't even begin to describe my mood right now. I'm so confused about everything. One day I'm thinking I've got my relationship back, but the next day we're practically broken up? Ain't that some shit.
So I guess it's safe to assume that Matt and I are probably over for good this time. But that's hardly a good thing. He doesn't want me anymore, I think.. I also think he's too afraid to tell me that to spare my feelings. But it still hurts me a lot. I can't really do too much about that, so I'm just going to try to suck it up and move on. That's what you do in relationships that are over, right? ..oh well, I guess I'll have to find out.
What else is there to talk about... I haven't really talked to many people these past couple of weeks. I feel like a fuckin' hermit. I've been home almost every night. It's so weird. I was used to being out at least 3 or 4 times a week. Now it's like I'm lucky if I even get to see the moon at night. I'm a loser, what can I say?
I've also been working like, everyday for the past 3 weeks! I *NEVER* work on Tuesdays & Wednesdays. I love working down at the office. But there are somedays when I don't want to get out of bed. I literally have to roll myself out of bed, haha.. It's cool though. The receptionist that I work with is so awesome. She's so funny. And my boss? HAHA.. She's a riot. We went to her house today for lunch and watched her the doctor's wedding on tape. It was HILARIOUS. He was like, the only white dude there. [Well, he's Puerto Rican, but whatever.] It was great. Today was actually pretty slow. Not slow, maybe slow-paced? The days always go by so fast, though. I think it's because we usually have like an hour & a ½ - 2 hours for lunch. No complaints there.
ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!! Speaking of lunch. We went to Subway. As we were getting to pay, the lady in front of us asked for some water. So they gave her water, but in a really small cup. So the lady asked for a big cup of water and they told her they couldn't give it to her. She FLIPPED out.... She SLAMMED her hand down on the counter and said something like, "This is bullshit," and zoomed her pissed off ass out of there. I wanted to LAUGH SOOOOO HARD. But I couldn't. It's okay.
Uhm, Coral just called. I'm heading out the door. More laterrrrrr!