Put you in a spot light...
So here i am again. Writing to you about my little pointless life.
There's a feeling of an obsolete anticlimax hanging in the air today. There's big grey thunder clouds. My window's open and i can almost smell the hum drum warm before the rain. I find it strange how... the weather seems to reflect my mood most of the time.
On levels i feel bitter and pissed off and want to rip holes through walls and scream until near everyone in Europe has heard me. But that isn't who i am. And i think i've lost my temper enough.
Two weeks of my life is nothing. But... i feel so betrayed. I dont want to talk to her because i know if i did id be vile and just a complete arsehole.
She tried to talk to me yesterday and i practically spat in her face. Its a self preservation thing i think. Its what i do, and i've done it before and i'll do it again because thats one of the ways i deal with things.
I'm not gonna be angry forever... because thats not what i do and not how i work. She just needs to stay away from me give me that time to close that door.
Hmm well the suns come out....
My little orchid is starting to grow again... its in pretty bad shape but its lasting... growing new roots and my other one has finished flowering by the look of it... pah. Bloody plants.
Sparks x
There's a feeling of an obsolete anticlimax hanging in the air today. There's big grey thunder clouds. My window's open and i can almost smell the hum drum warm before the rain. I find it strange how... the weather seems to reflect my mood most of the time.
On levels i feel bitter and pissed off and want to rip holes through walls and scream until near everyone in Europe has heard me. But that isn't who i am. And i think i've lost my temper enough.
Two weeks of my life is nothing. But... i feel so betrayed. I dont want to talk to her because i know if i did id be vile and just a complete arsehole.
She tried to talk to me yesterday and i practically spat in her face. Its a self preservation thing i think. Its what i do, and i've done it before and i'll do it again because thats one of the ways i deal with things.
I'm not gonna be angry forever... because thats not what i do and not how i work. She just needs to stay away from me give me that time to close that door.
Hmm well the suns come out....
My little orchid is starting to grow again... its in pretty bad shape but its lasting... growing new roots and my other one has finished flowering by the look of it... pah. Bloody plants.
Sparks x