I believe in a thing called love
I strongly believe that jealousy or desire are not tell tale signs of love. I am nt saying that the aforementioned emotions are not subsets of love, they might be, but they are not equated with/to love. Human emotions are puzzling, and i'm often left pondering just when i've thought i have figured it out.The same route never leads to the same end point, so badgering your friends about what he/she was/might be thinking when he/she said/did this is close to pointless. If you're searching for some false comfort thn that is all you are guna get.
In fact, i'm rather intrigued by our emotions. I'm puzzled by how i react to ..certain things, when i shundt even have an reaction at all. And its weird how under almost ideal circumstances, i react differently to A and B. What does this mean? why?
And I'm not a confrontational person at all. I believe in the words of the body. If it is that apparent thn theres really no point in reinstating the obvious. Redundant. If he isnt doing this this and this, thn that can only mean one thing. He doesnt care. Making the 'effort' to confront him with your feelings and the "paradox" of what he "shud" be doing and reality only puts you in a nastly embarassing conumdrum. As such, i gather tht i'm not one for confessing my feelings hahah. I'm cautious. I wont go arnd bearing my heart to you when it is obvious ( subjective) tht u do not reciprocate and whatever i might consider to be signs of special feelings has a high chance of being all in my head.
That aside, i had a gory dream last night. I dreamt that i was with Bear, we were running in the rain, and there was this little run running to us, He turned out and opened a longer thn usual umbrella to sheild the kid. At that same moment, a bolt of lightning was ignited frm the sky and before i knew it, bear was burnt and convulsing. and since i was in close proximity i was slightly injured as well. But a second glance soon changed everything. Next thing i know body had been severed frm his hips ( by the bolt i surmise). and he was just lying there. And i was there. "experiencing" everything. how gross. Oh and we were only a few feet away frm a hospital. i wonder if my dream carries any meaning
i might be lj-ing for a while. Somehow i feel better knowing that i have a choice at the end of the post, to keep it priv or share with my friends or let the hwole world see. When i blog, i feel eyes peering at me. (even though i disable comments).
In fact, i'm rather intrigued by our emotions. I'm puzzled by how i react to ..certain things, when i shundt even have an reaction at all. And its weird how under almost ideal circumstances, i react differently to A and B. What does this mean? why?
And I'm not a confrontational person at all. I believe in the words of the body. If it is that apparent thn theres really no point in reinstating the obvious. Redundant. If he isnt doing this this and this, thn that can only mean one thing. He doesnt care. Making the 'effort' to confront him with your feelings and the "paradox" of what he "shud" be doing and reality only puts you in a nastly embarassing conumdrum. As such, i gather tht i'm not one for confessing my feelings hahah. I'm cautious. I wont go arnd bearing my heart to you when it is obvious ( subjective) tht u do not reciprocate and whatever i might consider to be signs of special feelings has a high chance of being all in my head.
That aside, i had a gory dream last night. I dreamt that i was with Bear, we were running in the rain, and there was this little run running to us, He turned out and opened a longer thn usual umbrella to sheild the kid. At that same moment, a bolt of lightning was ignited frm the sky and before i knew it, bear was burnt and convulsing. and since i was in close proximity i was slightly injured as well. But a second glance soon changed everything. Next thing i know body had been severed frm his hips ( by the bolt i surmise). and he was just lying there. And i was there. "experiencing" everything. how gross. Oh and we were only a few feet away frm a hospital. i wonder if my dream carries any meaning
i might be lj-ing for a while. Somehow i feel better knowing that i have a choice at the end of the post, to keep it priv or share with my friends or let the hwole world see. When i blog, i feel eyes peering at me. (even though i disable comments).