Tomorrow is the big day!!!
Tomorrow is my handfasting commitment ceremony to my girlfriend/fiancee. I'm very excited, but also completely panicked and having periodic meltdowns, because there's still so much left to do.
I still need to shave my legs and do my nails (which are a mess, because I've been tearing up my cuticles due to my anxiety). I still need to sweep and mop the kitchen, living room, stairs, hallway, and bathroom (I'll just close the doors to my bedroom and computer room). I still need to pick up a check, cash it, and go shopping for the rest of the food for the reception, on a very limited budget. I need to worry about gas money for my fiancee. I have to miss out, because the reception is BYOB, and I won't have money to get myself any alcohol. I still need to take out trash and recycling. I still have to clean my kitchen, which is kind of a big task. I still have to keep making ice cubes, even though all this ice handling is setting of my Raynaud's something fierce. I still have to finish washing the bedding for the futon, because I have to pile it up there, or else it's to uncomfortable to sit there. I still have to wash my bed linens for the wedding night ;-) I still have to set up tables, chairs, decorations, and food outside for the reception. I have to worry if any random people will get in the way during the ceremony, because we are doing it at a public park, no reservations. I have to worry if my nosy and judgmental neighbors will cause problems during the reception in my backyard. I have to worry if the sky lantern will catch something on fire. I have to worry if my few guests will judge me for living in low income housing. I have to worry if any roaches will make an appearance (my landlord has been exterminating, and the roaches are greatly reduced, but not entirely gone). I have to worry if it will rain. I have to worry, because my girlfriend has sinus congestion now. I have to worry if anyone will flake out and let me down on things they promised to do. I have to worry about locking 4 cats in my computer room, and possibly my dog, if she gets too nervous. I have to worry about my face, because my acne is even worse than usual right now. And I've pretty much given up on making any notes on what to say for my personal expression of vows. I just don't have time, so I'll have to sort of wing it.
I still need to shave my legs and do my nails (which are a mess, because I've been tearing up my cuticles due to my anxiety). I still need to sweep and mop the kitchen, living room, stairs, hallway, and bathroom (I'll just close the doors to my bedroom and computer room). I still need to pick up a check, cash it, and go shopping for the rest of the food for the reception, on a very limited budget. I need to worry about gas money for my fiancee. I have to miss out, because the reception is BYOB, and I won't have money to get myself any alcohol. I still need to take out trash and recycling. I still have to clean my kitchen, which is kind of a big task. I still have to keep making ice cubes, even though all this ice handling is setting of my Raynaud's something fierce. I still have to finish washing the bedding for the futon, because I have to pile it up there, or else it's to uncomfortable to sit there. I still have to wash my bed linens for the wedding night ;-) I still have to set up tables, chairs, decorations, and food outside for the reception. I have to worry if any random people will get in the way during the ceremony, because we are doing it at a public park, no reservations. I have to worry if my nosy and judgmental neighbors will cause problems during the reception in my backyard. I have to worry if the sky lantern will catch something on fire. I have to worry if my few guests will judge me for living in low income housing. I have to worry if any roaches will make an appearance (my landlord has been exterminating, and the roaches are greatly reduced, but not entirely gone). I have to worry if it will rain. I have to worry, because my girlfriend has sinus congestion now. I have to worry if anyone will flake out and let me down on things they promised to do. I have to worry about locking 4 cats in my computer room, and possibly my dog, if she gets too nervous. I have to worry about my face, because my acne is even worse than usual right now. And I've pretty much given up on making any notes on what to say for my personal expression of vows. I just don't have time, so I'll have to sort of wing it.