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Explain your relationship status:
Used up and left with a broken heart
How many people have you kissed in '10?
1. It was nice while it lasted.
What did you wear today?
Shirt from lucky 13, jeans
How many windows are open on your computer?
One
What are you doing after this?
Going to cry myself to sleep.
How tall are you?
5'9"
Last hug from the opposite sex?
Gage. The last one I'll ever have.
Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
Sure, who cares about the way I look?
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
My eyes are really red.
When's the last time you got stung by a bee?
This summer, camping. Last time I'll do that too.
What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
Floor?
Name the shoe brand you are wearing?
Not wearing shoes right now
Do you write notes on your hand?
Yes, often.
Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
No.
Did you take a nap today?
No.
Three days from now, will you be in a relationship?
No. Three months from now, no. Three years from now, no. Ever again? No. I don't have anything left for anyone else.
Would you be willing to live with your best friend?
Absolutely.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Sure. Fat chance of that happening.
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
So many broken promises I've lost count.
Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
No. I'm pretty sure he left my house today feeling like a huge burden had been lifted from his shoulders, went to party with his friends and some girls, got drunk and won't remember my name.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Gage, today, when he said that he didn't think we should be together anymore.
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Ironically, Gage did. Many times. I'm a fucking idiot to have believed him.
What's wrong with you?
I'm pretty much worthless. Every time I think maybe things will finally get better, they don't. They probably never will. And I couldn't make the man I love happy, so how much worthless can you get than that?
Do you think anyone's lying to you right now?
No.
Do you straighten your hair?
Only when I wanted to go out somewhere.
What is the last movie you watched?
Emperor's new groove tonight.
What do you hear?
Me still crying. I haven't stopped since he left almost ten hours ago.
What time did you wake up today?
8
Last time you saw your dad?
About forty minutes ago.
Last thing you ate?
Cheese puff.
Ever felt like you're not good enough?
A more appropriate question would be have I ever felt good enough? Answer: No.
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
All the time.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
Only Gage's clothing. I guess he'll be burning those.
Do you smoke weed everyday?
Maybe I should start.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
I thought I could last in my year and a bit relationship but apparently I was wrong. I'll probably never get a date again.
What will you be doing this weekend?
Nothing. Its wide open now.
What were you doing at 8 am today?
Sitting in bed wondering when Gage was going to end me. I saw it coming you see.
What were you doing at 10 am?
Still not having the will to get out of bed. I knew what was coming for me.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I'll never have one.
Do you like the President of the United States?
I really don't care.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Doubt it.
Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yeah, right now. I keep looking at our pictures and the letters he sent me saying he loved me more than anything. Guess it was all a lie.
Last person you shared a drink with?
I drink alone.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
I gave him everything, I tried so hard, I didn't do anything wrong and he just decided he didn't love me anymore. I put up with him always being away, I was always supportive of him and I barely got to see him once every few weeks. He got free sex, free concert tickets, free dinners, free rides, free movies and what do I get? I'm done with you now, so bye. Fuck my life because I'm obviously not meant to be happy.
Do you get along with girls?
Not as a general rule.
How much longer until your birthday?
Few months, I don't care.
Who bought you the clothes your wearing?
The shirt the man who makes me wish I had died in the ER bought for me, and everything else I got on my own.
How often do you say I love you?
I used to say it every night. I'll never say it again.
Who is the last person you told you loved them?
Gage. Doesn't seem to make a difference.
When is the last time you talked to your ex?
When he became my ex, earlier today.
Are you tired?
Tired of this life really. Tired of never being given a chance to be happy.
When is the last time you talked to all of your siblings?
When my brother texted me once a very long time ago.
How did you last hurt yourself?
I hit myself a lot after Gage left. Tried to overcome the other pain. Didn't work.
Do people under estimate you?
No. I am as pathetic and worthless as I appear.
Do you wear a lot of black?
Yes.
Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
No, I get extremely cold at night. Gage used to be there to keep warm, but never again.
How old do you look?
Might as well look 80 I don't care anymore.
Are you waiting for something?
For the impossible. For Gage to call me back and say he wants to try again. I'll wait for that call for the rest of my life.
What were you doing at 10 last night?
Watching the big bang theory.
Did you cry today?
Haven't stopped yet.
How about yesterday?
See above answer.
Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
Gage? No. He's condemned me to a life where I'll feel like dying every day. But still, I would suffer any amount if he could be happy.
Where were you on July 4th?
Don't remember.
Who do you go to when you need someone to talk to?
When I tried to talk to one of my best friends I got "well, well, well. You're preaching to the choir." Thanks for the support.
Do you like to cuddle?
I miss holding him and cuddling him every second.
Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Now that Gage had decided he no longer loves me, this will be a very cold lonely night. I miss waking up and looking over to see him sleeping with his arm around me. That will also never happen again.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
Fuck no.
Do you believe you have common sense?
Yes.
Do you ever find yourself worrying about commitment?
Not anymore.
Last place you hugged someone?
My bedroom, crying as the man I love with all my heart told me I was no longer to be a part of his life.
Last beverage you consumed?
Alcohol.
Is there anything stressing you out currently?
The fact that the one thing I counted on through all the shit I've had to put up with has now just added to the emotional baggage I carry, making it certain no man will ever want me again.
Is anybody currently jealous of you?
Hmm, fat worthless cunt who has no boyfriend? No, I don't think so.
Do you currently have any bruises on you?
Many. Anywhere and everywhere.
Did the one person who hurt you the most apologize?
Yes. But it doesn't change the fact that while he doesn't care about me anymore I was ready to commit my entire life to him. Surprise!
You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
Just drive a railroad spike through my head.
Plans for tomorrow?
Job interview. Cry. Go to supper with Renate. Cry. Resist urge to call Gage. Cry harder.
What were you doing this morning at 5:30 am?
Sleep.
Do you like the ocean?
Of course.
Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
Male.
What woke you up this morning?
A text from Katelyn.
Is your hair curly or straight?
More curly than straight but I wouldn't say its a nice curly.
Used up and left with a broken heart
How many people have you kissed in '10?
1. It was nice while it lasted.
What did you wear today?
Shirt from lucky 13, jeans
How many windows are open on your computer?
One
What are you doing after this?
Going to cry myself to sleep.
How tall are you?
5'9"
Last hug from the opposite sex?
Gage. The last one I'll ever have.
Would you ever dye your hair blonde?
Sure, who cares about the way I look?
When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
My eyes are really red.
When's the last time you got stung by a bee?
This summer, camping. Last time I'll do that too.
What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
Floor?
Name the shoe brand you are wearing?
Not wearing shoes right now
Do you write notes on your hand?
Yes, often.
Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?
No.
Did you take a nap today?
No.
Three days from now, will you be in a relationship?
No. Three months from now, no. Three years from now, no. Ever again? No. I don't have anything left for anyone else.
Would you be willing to live with your best friend?
Absolutely.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Sure. Fat chance of that happening.
Has someone ever made you a promise and broke it?
So many broken promises I've lost count.
Do you believe your ex thinks about you?
No. I'm pretty sure he left my house today feeling like a huge burden had been lifted from his shoulders, went to party with his friends and some girls, got drunk and won't remember my name.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
Gage, today, when he said that he didn't think we should be together anymore.
Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Ironically, Gage did. Many times. I'm a fucking idiot to have believed him.
What's wrong with you?
I'm pretty much worthless. Every time I think maybe things will finally get better, they don't. They probably never will. And I couldn't make the man I love happy, so how much worthless can you get than that?
Do you think anyone's lying to you right now?
No.
Do you straighten your hair?
Only when I wanted to go out somewhere.
What is the last movie you watched?
Emperor's new groove tonight.
What do you hear?
Me still crying. I haven't stopped since he left almost ten hours ago.
What time did you wake up today?
8
Last time you saw your dad?
About forty minutes ago.
Last thing you ate?
Cheese puff.
Ever felt like you're not good enough?
A more appropriate question would be have I ever felt good enough? Answer: No.
Think a lot before you fall asleep?
All the time.
Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
Only Gage's clothing. I guess he'll be burning those.
Do you smoke weed everyday?
Maybe I should start.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?
I thought I could last in my year and a bit relationship but apparently I was wrong. I'll probably never get a date again.
What will you be doing this weekend?
Nothing. Its wide open now.
What were you doing at 8 am today?
Sitting in bed wondering when Gage was going to end me. I saw it coming you see.
What were you doing at 10 am?
Still not having the will to get out of bed. I knew what was coming for me.
Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I'll never have one.
Do you like the President of the United States?
I really don't care.
Will tomorrow be better than today?
Doubt it.
Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
Yeah, right now. I keep looking at our pictures and the letters he sent me saying he loved me more than anything. Guess it was all a lie.
Last person you shared a drink with?
I drink alone.
Do you think relationships are ever really worth it?
I gave him everything, I tried so hard, I didn't do anything wrong and he just decided he didn't love me anymore. I put up with him always being away, I was always supportive of him and I barely got to see him once every few weeks. He got free sex, free concert tickets, free dinners, free rides, free movies and what do I get? I'm done with you now, so bye. Fuck my life because I'm obviously not meant to be happy.
Do you get along with girls?
Not as a general rule.
How much longer until your birthday?
Few months, I don't care.
Who bought you the clothes your wearing?
The shirt the man who makes me wish I had died in the ER bought for me, and everything else I got on my own.
How often do you say I love you?
I used to say it every night. I'll never say it again.
Who is the last person you told you loved them?
Gage. Doesn't seem to make a difference.
When is the last time you talked to your ex?
When he became my ex, earlier today.
Are you tired?
Tired of this life really. Tired of never being given a chance to be happy.
When is the last time you talked to all of your siblings?
When my brother texted me once a very long time ago.
How did you last hurt yourself?
I hit myself a lot after Gage left. Tried to overcome the other pain. Didn't work.
Do people under estimate you?
No. I am as pathetic and worthless as I appear.
Do you wear a lot of black?
Yes.
Can you sleep without blankets covering you?
No, I get extremely cold at night. Gage used to be there to keep warm, but never again.
How old do you look?
Might as well look 80 I don't care anymore.
Are you waiting for something?
For the impossible. For Gage to call me back and say he wants to try again. I'll wait for that call for the rest of my life.
What were you doing at 10 last night?
Watching the big bang theory.
Did you cry today?
Haven't stopped yet.
How about yesterday?
See above answer.
Do you hate the last person you had a conversation with?
Gage? No. He's condemned me to a life where I'll feel like dying every day. But still, I would suffer any amount if he could be happy.
Where were you on July 4th?
Don't remember.
Who do you go to when you need someone to talk to?
When I tried to talk to one of my best friends I got "well, well, well. You're preaching to the choir." Thanks for the support.
Do you like to cuddle?
I miss holding him and cuddling him every second.
Will you be sleeping alone tonight?
Now that Gage had decided he no longer loves me, this will be a very cold lonely night. I miss waking up and looking over to see him sleeping with his arm around me. That will also never happen again.
Do you consider yourself lucky?
Fuck no.
Do you believe you have common sense?
Yes.
Do you ever find yourself worrying about commitment?
Not anymore.
Last place you hugged someone?
My bedroom, crying as the man I love with all my heart told me I was no longer to be a part of his life.
Last beverage you consumed?
Alcohol.
Is there anything stressing you out currently?
The fact that the one thing I counted on through all the shit I've had to put up with has now just added to the emotional baggage I carry, making it certain no man will ever want me again.
Is anybody currently jealous of you?
Hmm, fat worthless cunt who has no boyfriend? No, I don't think so.
Do you currently have any bruises on you?
Many. Anywhere and everywhere.
Did the one person who hurt you the most apologize?
Yes. But it doesn't change the fact that while he doesn't care about me anymore I was ready to commit my entire life to him. Surprise!
You have to get a piercing, what do you get?
Just drive a railroad spike through my head.
Plans for tomorrow?
Job interview. Cry. Go to supper with Renate. Cry. Resist urge to call Gage. Cry harder.
What were you doing this morning at 5:30 am?
Sleep.
Do you like the ocean?
Of course.
Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
Male.
What woke you up this morning?
A text from Katelyn.
Is your hair curly or straight?
More curly than straight but I wouldn't say its a nice curly.