i need to go back to school
my mom is pissing me off more than ever right now, she's takin out all her frustration on me, she's makin me pay for wut my father is doin to her and she is hating me for not gettin into the middle of the situation. i hate it when parents bring their kids into the middle of their marital issues, it really fucks up the kid emotionally.
i'm hating living at home soo much right about now, all i do is cry out of frustration of this whole situation, my mom makes me feel like shit, i can't even talk to her about the things that r goin on in my life cuz she'll turn it around and make me feel even worse for confiding in her. sometimes i hate, i mean i love her cuz she's my mom, but i hate her for the person she's becoming and the way she treats me sometimes.
i just need to move away, somewhere far from everyone. i hate feeling soo depressed, i thought being at home for the summer would make me somewhat happy, but it isn't. i'm hating life right now. all i want to do is sleep and go to work, i don't even really want to see my friends all that much cuz i feel being around them will make them more depressed. wut really sucks is that i feel and somewhat kno that i don't have ne one in the world to talk to about my problems. this is sorta the reason y i cry all the time at night when i'm by myself. life is real hard for me, emotionally wise that is. i feel i don't have ne one to relate to about ne thing. i hate crying at night, it makes me feel weak and vulnerable, but wut other option do i have? keep it all bottles up or take it out on everyone around like numerous ppl i kno do all the damn time.
another thing, i'm tired of paying for the mistakes other ppl made. i am not those ppl and i do deserve a fighting chance. i need to b loved, trusted, and cared for just as much as the next person, so why am i payin for mistakes or wrong doings of others?
i'm hating living at home soo much right about now, all i do is cry out of frustration of this whole situation, my mom makes me feel like shit, i can't even talk to her about the things that r goin on in my life cuz she'll turn it around and make me feel even worse for confiding in her. sometimes i hate, i mean i love her cuz she's my mom, but i hate her for the person she's becoming and the way she treats me sometimes.
i just need to move away, somewhere far from everyone. i hate feeling soo depressed, i thought being at home for the summer would make me somewhat happy, but it isn't. i'm hating life right now. all i want to do is sleep and go to work, i don't even really want to see my friends all that much cuz i feel being around them will make them more depressed. wut really sucks is that i feel and somewhat kno that i don't have ne one in the world to talk to about my problems. this is sorta the reason y i cry all the time at night when i'm by myself. life is real hard for me, emotionally wise that is. i feel i don't have ne one to relate to about ne thing. i hate crying at night, it makes me feel weak and vulnerable, but wut other option do i have? keep it all bottles up or take it out on everyone around like numerous ppl i kno do all the damn time.
another thing, i'm tired of paying for the mistakes other ppl made. i am not those ppl and i do deserve a fighting chance. i need to b loved, trusted, and cared for just as much as the next person, so why am i payin for mistakes or wrong doings of others?