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Awake and over-caffienated.
Its about 1.30am here, there's a cool breeze and the windows are open. I'm still sweating cos it's humid and uncomfortable warm, but thankfully I am in light cotton jammies.
What is really keeping me awake? The coffee or my dilemma?
I've always been told it's difficult to work with friends but I thought we could work it out. We've been best friends since school and we were together almost all the time. Do people really change as they grow up? Even though things change in the world, a friendship should stay the same, right?
This is the situation at the workplace: I outrank my best friend, I'm somewhat of her immediate supervisor. We have a great working relationship, we get on together really well at work. Or so I thought.
Lately another co-worker confided in me. Nobody else in our department likes my best friend! She's been slacking off a lot and disappearing from her workstation too often, and sometimes for no reason except she wants to see friends in other departments. Nobody else in the department wants to talk to her cos she can't stop talking once she starts, and she stops working once she starts talking.
I've never noticed before, I always saw the side of her that was working and she always tells me what she's done so I trusted her.
Now I feel betrayed. I left her alone because I know she's capable of good work, she's smarter and more qualified than me. In trusting her, have I been doing a sloppy job as her supervisor? Have I not kept her to the same standards as everyone else and have I let her fool me into thinking all is well?
I don't know if I should confront her or not. Talking about it with her is one of the most uncomfortable, awkward things I'll have to do. According to M. Scott Peck, the Road Less Traveled is the most honest one. In this case, it's also the road that will cause the most pain and could potentially break our friendship.
Is it impossible for a friendship to last through trouble?
I want to get my feelings straight first. Have I been displaying favoritism?
I'm a workaholic and lead by example. Have others been expecting her to be the same?
I just want to sleep. I need to distance myself and look at the situation. If only I was one of those people who are able to compartmentalize their feelings.
This friend is worth a lot to me, but I also need to look at myself. I'm approaching the situation as an employee, not as a friend.
I just hope I can do this. I hope she can understand. I hope I'm wrong. I hope I don't lose a friend.
Its about 1.30am here, there's a cool breeze and the windows are open. I'm still sweating cos it's humid and uncomfortable warm, but thankfully I am in light cotton jammies.
What is really keeping me awake? The coffee or my dilemma?
I've always been told it's difficult to work with friends but I thought we could work it out. We've been best friends since school and we were together almost all the time. Do people really change as they grow up? Even though things change in the world, a friendship should stay the same, right?
This is the situation at the workplace: I outrank my best friend, I'm somewhat of her immediate supervisor. We have a great working relationship, we get on together really well at work. Or so I thought.
Lately another co-worker confided in me. Nobody else in our department likes my best friend! She's been slacking off a lot and disappearing from her workstation too often, and sometimes for no reason except she wants to see friends in other departments. Nobody else in the department wants to talk to her cos she can't stop talking once she starts, and she stops working once she starts talking.
I've never noticed before, I always saw the side of her that was working and she always tells me what she's done so I trusted her.
Now I feel betrayed. I left her alone because I know she's capable of good work, she's smarter and more qualified than me. In trusting her, have I been doing a sloppy job as her supervisor? Have I not kept her to the same standards as everyone else and have I let her fool me into thinking all is well?
I don't know if I should confront her or not. Talking about it with her is one of the most uncomfortable, awkward things I'll have to do. According to M. Scott Peck, the Road Less Traveled is the most honest one. In this case, it's also the road that will cause the most pain and could potentially break our friendship.
Is it impossible for a friendship to last through trouble?
I want to get my feelings straight first. Have I been displaying favoritism?
I'm a workaholic and lead by example. Have others been expecting her to be the same?
I just want to sleep. I need to distance myself and look at the situation. If only I was one of those people who are able to compartmentalize their feelings.
This friend is worth a lot to me, but I also need to look at myself. I'm approaching the situation as an employee, not as a friend.
I just hope I can do this. I hope she can understand. I hope I'm wrong. I hope I don't lose a friend.