And yet I write
Seems to me I write when I need to really say something about my life. I'm wierd that way. Got Bunny into Kumon to help with her school work, 2,000 dollars a year and I really hope it works. I keep thinking positivily about it, I hope that things do work out rather well. The Ex has still stiffed me for over 100 dollars from a dentist bill, which now has caused me to be rather in the hole with my bills. I hate to ask Nana for more money but I'm caught big time. I have no one else to talk to you. I got my bills in order and a budget planned out, just seems that he can still fuck around with my life due to the fact he can't give me the money he owes me. It's been going on now for two months. I make 30,000 dollars less than he does, he has to understand I have to pay bills.
I have to pay another bill today, the doctors bill and god help me of I gave him that bill. It would be months before I say that money. I swear, I wonder at times if he really does care. His wife does the budget and he told me had he known about the cavities ahead of time. Oh yes, let me just schedule that in. "Hey Ex? Do you think you can budget say ooo 104.00 in the next month, I think Bunny is going to need to for dental work. Oh yeah, thanks so much." Yeah life doesn't happen like that and of course we know for a fact he doesn't save shit. I'm trying to save I'm trying to do. I still keep believing that I am rich, I have funds but when I watch the black go red. I just try to grip on hard and bite my teeth. I keep saying it's for bunny it's for bunny. No matter how far into debt I go, it's for bunny it's for bunny.
Well it's for bunny and that's all I can do about it right now.