I'll try to explain in more detail my current state of mind.
Anything that looks like an engagement to me - something I MUST do - feeds my stress. Even if it's pleasant.
Example: you invite me out to the cinema. Good. Nice. But this means there is a fixed time to go there. This stresses me. So I'll probably tell you no. Not certain, but don't be ( Read more... )

So, before I try and go take my blood test, a few updates.
Yes, I'm stressed. Yes, I cry for nothing. So please just avoid "nothing", for the time being. Be gentle, be kind, be soothing, congratulate me for what I do and just spare me the critics: write them down for when I'll feel better, that is in a month and a half.
No, I'm not depressed: I just ( Read more... )

Today it's my resting day. Which doesn't mean I'm going to do nothing at all, but just that I'm going to do just what I feel like doing, and without hurrying ( Read more... )

They say the suicide rate is higher in summer. Actually, holidays (summer, Christmas, Easter...) have always depressed me a lot, so I've always done all that's in my power to work during those periods. Now I'm working too much, I'm not depressed, but I'm stressed. To the point that yesterday I was far from kind to a dear friend who - him too - is ( Read more... )

I'm NOT on holiday. I'm working like a mule, doing night shifts right now. I'll have just one full day off, on Friday, before starting sport shifts.
Add to that a vaginal infection that's driving me crazy, and my flat in the dirtiest state I've ever had it, and you can imagine it's not exactly a holiday.

But let's look at the positive sides:

- A ( Read more... )