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Right now, I would honestly not be surprised if Holly didn't live very much longer. He's been weeping from the nose and lower eye and tonight was sitting next to the hutch very, very quietly with nary a sniffle until after I'd stroked him for a while and tried to pick him up to have a better look at his face, which annoyed him enough to get him more active for a while.
I... am actually not being too self-recriminating about this. I don't want to lose him but if I do I've still had about twenty months with him that I probably shouldn't have, because it seemed so certain that he was going to die as an adolescent.
But I will write more about that if and when it happens because if I get into what ifs and emotional introspection right now I'll just turn into a complete mess.
Instead I bring you this.
Also: yes, I did go to the memorial yesterday, and I have the sunburn to prove it. (It seems everyone who went got sunburned and everyone who's sunburned went, though I'm statistically sure there are outliers in this equation.) It was very religious but I sat through it anyway and cried quite a bit, though not as much as I might have if Christianity hadn't kept killing the moment.
Lots of people on the #eqnz hashtag have been linking to the first 14 minute video showing the devastation in the CBD, but I'm going to do this one instead showing all the work people have been putting in since then. This video was at the end of the service. For ambient context, imagine watching it on a hot autumn day with tens of thousands of people around you giving standing ovations every time it starts a new thematic paragraph. Then attempt to sing the NZ national anthem while sobbing.
This entry was originally posted at http://keieeeye.dreamwidth.org/169093.html. Feel free to comment there instead because LJ is a poo.
I... am actually not being too self-recriminating about this. I don't want to lose him but if I do I've still had about twenty months with him that I probably shouldn't have, because it seemed so certain that he was going to die as an adolescent.
But I will write more about that if and when it happens because if I get into what ifs and emotional introspection right now I'll just turn into a complete mess.
Instead I bring you this.
Also: yes, I did go to the memorial yesterday, and I have the sunburn to prove it. (It seems everyone who went got sunburned and everyone who's sunburned went, though I'm statistically sure there are outliers in this equation.) It was very religious but I sat through it anyway and cried quite a bit, though not as much as I might have if Christianity hadn't kept killing the moment.
Lots of people on the #eqnz hashtag have been linking to the first 14 minute video showing the devastation in the CBD, but I'm going to do this one instead showing all the work people have been putting in since then. This video was at the end of the service. For ambient context, imagine watching it on a hot autumn day with tens of thousands of people around you giving standing ovations every time it starts a new thematic paragraph. Then attempt to sing the NZ national anthem while sobbing.
This entry was originally posted at http://keieeeye.dreamwidth.org/169093.html. Feel free to comment there instead because LJ is a poo.