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Holy shit, am I the onyl oen that understands me? or can at least semi relate to?
Anyways me and josh broke up friday and i dont want to get back together. After four tries of not getting anywhere wouldnt you nto want to try again? I sound liek a totayl bitch but i cant help the way i feel, and im not goign to make myself unhappy when trying to work things out when they cant be worked out. Its not that I dont care but I just dont want to try for the rest of my life, get no where, and be unhappy. I haven't really been thinking about it, njust tryign to forget, so then later if i do, it might not hit me so hard, this probably doesn't make sense, but it does to me.
I know the last few days are the crucial points but they haven't been. Somedays yes, im just pissed off, and sometimes its not even school, i just am, and maybe it has to do with that and myabe not, but B days are the best, most time, and well wednesday was pretty awesome, i had such an awesome day, hung out got cold *winks at ashley*, and had no problems with anyone. But yea.
Im having a shitty day, but lookign forward to 2morrow, and hopign it will get better. I also maybe get to see blade 2morrow, but im really broke, but yea.I cant get my new cell phone till january second, im soo pissed about that! hehe but yesm. lol, but damn. Lol, i had so much to say before. Oh yea, Moab tournament on dec 17, excitem,ent. Also, I though model Un wasnt too awful actually kind of fun, it just took 8 hours to get through one topic and 6 to get through the other one. but its alright. I have workshops 2morrow and i dont know why, but the good thing is nooo classess! YAY! Im feeling so much better than last week, i have pigment in my skin, and im doin good.
Okay if anyone is planning on getting me something for christmas( which i dont expect) and dont knwo what to get me, i want squishy pillows. You knwo those really soft pillows with the coold seeds inside, you've seen em, yea well those, cause they're just soo awesome. but yea more updates later...
Anyways me and josh broke up friday and i dont want to get back together. After four tries of not getting anywhere wouldnt you nto want to try again? I sound liek a totayl bitch but i cant help the way i feel, and im not goign to make myself unhappy when trying to work things out when they cant be worked out. Its not that I dont care but I just dont want to try for the rest of my life, get no where, and be unhappy. I haven't really been thinking about it, njust tryign to forget, so then later if i do, it might not hit me so hard, this probably doesn't make sense, but it does to me.
I know the last few days are the crucial points but they haven't been. Somedays yes, im just pissed off, and sometimes its not even school, i just am, and maybe it has to do with that and myabe not, but B days are the best, most time, and well wednesday was pretty awesome, i had such an awesome day, hung out got cold *winks at ashley*, and had no problems with anyone. But yea.
Im having a shitty day, but lookign forward to 2morrow, and hopign it will get better. I also maybe get to see blade 2morrow, but im really broke, but yea.I cant get my new cell phone till january second, im soo pissed about that! hehe but yesm. lol, but damn. Lol, i had so much to say before. Oh yea, Moab tournament on dec 17, excitem,ent. Also, I though model Un wasnt too awful actually kind of fun, it just took 8 hours to get through one topic and 6 to get through the other one. but its alright. I have workshops 2morrow and i dont know why, but the good thing is nooo classess! YAY! Im feeling so much better than last week, i have pigment in my skin, and im doin good.
Okay if anyone is planning on getting me something for christmas( which i dont expect) and dont knwo what to get me, i want squishy pillows. You knwo those really soft pillows with the coold seeds inside, you've seen em, yea well those, cause they're just soo awesome. but yea more updates later...