May 12, 2005 14:12
Well, yesterday was a bit strenuous because i started it with a big fight. nooooo gooood. and i was at work and it was kinda busy. but, then i went to my jane austen class and it was the last class so we were discussing overall stuff from the 6 books we have read. it was kinda fun. so fun in fact, that without really meaning to, i ended up staying afterwards and talked with my professor for 45 minutes about jane austen!!! who does that??? it doesnt really count as sucking up tho because my professor happens to be my boss as well, and shes probably the adult i am closest to who isnt related to me.
i feel like a common theme through a lot of these entries is the whole "growing up" thing. more and more i am realizing just how much i have grown up this semester, and being able to sit and talk to a superior as though i was talking to an equal is something that is completely new to me.
when we finally got up to leave, she said "katie, i am really glad that you work for me and i have had the opportunity to have you in class. i will see you tomorrow."
as i was walking back to my apartment, i thought about some of the professors in the sociology department that i have gotten to know. and i realized that though i am not quite on the same level with them as i am with dr. pippen, there are several who i can talk to pretty freely. i know that maybe this isnt a new thing for many people, but for me it is. i was SCARED TO DEATH of my teachers in high school and freshman year of college.
there is just so much that i am capable of at the end of this semester that i couldnt do before. it has definitely not been a semester where i have made great strides academically, but personally i have.
and then the fight got resolved much later, which in a way was another thing that made me feel a little more grown up.
first of all, thanks to everyone who listened to me rant and rave about it. this means all my roomates. i am starting to realize how much i am going to miss living with all of these wonderful women. they have been a wonderful source of support for the last year, whether it be needing someone to rant to, cry to, or tell a stupid story too. they are each strong women, who i truely admire because they are each is so unique and capable. i know everyone one of them will find happiness in life, because they all deserve it. it has been a wonderful experience. i love you all!!
anyway, the point is that i was able to sort my thoughts out about this fight before it came time for round 2. and i was able to rationally, calmly, and somewhat articulately explain my feelings on the matter, instead of getting defensive and attacking like i did before. and because of this, the fight ended. just like that. i dont ever remember a fight with anyone being rapped up that nicely, and i am glad that it ended the way it did.
so things are much better. since when do fights ever actaully make things better?
tomorrow is where the fuck is it part 2. ryan and i set up a party invitation thing for it on facebook, and thought most people haven't rsvped (even though i have told them to) because they think that just telling me or ryan they are coming is good enough (BUT IT ISNT!), but there have been some confirmed invites from people that i am really excited about. i even got a message from RA Joey saying that hes def coming and really excited!! i dont think i have seen him since the last party.
thefacebook is thebestthing.
that is all for now. one week left. ahhh!!