Musings...Sounds & Fury Signifying Nothing
Things in my life & times recently has me thinking about choices I've made and how they affect others, those close to me some of the closest to my heart or what ever it may be in there.
I've tried very hard to live my life going where ever the wind pushed me or taking any chance offered to live my life to the fullest, to explore life in every possible way & as much as possible with out regrets.
I've always thought that if I'm being honest, truly honest then what ever happens happens and everyone knows what part that they play in this passion play of my life.
I know I'm a complicated more so than even I can imagine, someone described me as a agent of chaos....and a enigma, wrapped in a blanket on the couch watching TV.
I get that but there are times that I think my being who I am can hurt others close to me and for that I wish life was different, not really I suppose maybe I wish I & my life was simple but I don't do simple easily or often.
I don't regret my life or the choices I've made, I'll never be a white picket fence kind of petzilla and I'll never know where my next adventure or tragedy will begin to end only I know there will be another.
If my being who or what ever I am hurt another close to me I want to say I'm sorry but I can't I treasure memories far too much to be sorry for the times.
So there it is, not quite a manifesto definitely not a apology or a regret but a tome and know that I am thankful for those that have come into my life and I will never forget those that have left.
Shakespeare once wrote in Hamlet 'to thine own self be true', in my words to you & to me; be true to thine self.