Putting the clutch in and changing the gear to "LIFE"
well... wow... i really am at a loss of words... tonight has been very long... infact the day but thats probably becuz i didnt sleep so its like 2 days together. anyhow... yea... got out at like 8:30 and called dan up cuz i thought karla would be hanigng out still with Rosalva. and so they were at Heather's lookin for a party and he said he would call me up and let me knows whats going on (i wasnt lookin to party)... and so i called around looking for something to occupy my time with... but i found myself with no where to go but Heather's and lucky for me i had my clothes in my trunk of the car so i changed and washed my hair there and went with Robert, Julian, Dan, and Mikey to Isaac's house (next to Karla's)... and yea... i dunno i drank 3 beers and sadly that was my limit lol... i smoked 2 cigarettes and yea... then i took off and gave Noe a ride home and hung out with him for a lil bit talkin some stuff over. Went back to looking for something to do... called Joey a bunch but that fucker is avoiding my calls now... so i give up trying to get a hold of him via the telephone... first thing i do tomorrow is wake up and drive to Joe's to demand that fucking money back finally. man to man... and he better fucking get the money... i dont care if he has to go in debt with his parents... but yea... i ended up cruising back by the party and julian was taking robert home cuz i guess Robert was throwing up (holy shit a fucking first!) and i drove off and came back and they were taking Mikey home then and he looked like he much needed it and so Dan got in my car and we were gonna leave but my phone started trippin out saying it had a voice mail so i checked and it was karla... i go next door and she answers but says she was at a party and gave me a kiss and went inside... i dunno... it would be hypocritical to get upset with her seemings how i did the exact same thing... but i dunno... it made me uneasy... but me and her will talk tomorrow. So me and dan just cruised around and set everything straight... and yea... it was needed... im glad we had that. I found myself with teary eyes and yea... me and him had a well emotional talk and yea... shit is good with me and him... always will be... he's my brother and best friend forever... but now tomorrow (well today) me dan and robert need to hang out and fix the gap between robert and i... im glad this is happening... i missed my bros and yea... i think i have matured and actually learned much lately... it's time to take charge and fix my life up now... no more kiddy bullshit... im almost 18... almost on my own... its time to square things away. So yea... im so tired... going to sleep now... goodnight.... hopefully everything works out with me and karla tomorrow and niether her nor i take offense or take somethign the wrong way... in general i hope no problems or miscommunications... and that goes for me and robert and dan too... Goodbye Pitiful/Pathetic/Sad/Sickening/Terrifying Addiction... Hello Mats Peterson... Hello Life.