Don't dream beyond your means, don't have expectations beyond your station. Don't desire what you don't deserve, and don't try and understand why. This is your life now and if it no longer cares for you then you should have no guilt for no longer caring for it. Ambivalence is liberation.

I Cannot Speak the unspeakable.

I Cannot Name the unnameable.

I Cannot do the impossible.

I Cannot survive if I don't know how to live.

Slowly I rise as the caked dust that covered me flows away.

Those that fed want more.

I will cackle with glee
As I watch you suffer and die in agony.
Then burn your retched and putrid corpse
And DANCE upon your charred skull!

That piece of elegant prose, came to me many years ago in a fit of inspiration, but I have never written it anywhere til now. I guess the time was right.

Off to decorate the Christmas Tree. :)