An ode to my friends.
So I'm almost done with everything, I have juries on Thursday and then I get to go see my best friend, and then spend the weekend with my other best friend. Things are pretty good, I had a bit of an emotional last week, dealing with unsettling emotions and coming to terms with some things in therapy. It's been good, I'm so thankful for the people in my life. Kim, you've been one of my greatest friends, you don't judge me, you listen and respond to everything I tell you, and you go out of your way to make me happy. I really hope that after you finish school then you can come live with us. Dave, you're the most amazing boyfriend, lover, and you come in a close second to one of my greatest friends. You've stood by me through everything, and the light at the end of the tunnel is so close, where we can just be together, live together, and start a life together. You work so hard everyday, and I want to make sure that it's well worth it for you. Jacko, I know we don't talk much, but you're always on my mind. Without you in my life, I don't think I would have honestly made it this long. Your strength, love, and commitment to your family and friends is so powerful, and each day I I take time to think about how much I love and miss you. Christine, you are so strong, and beautiful, and you have accomplished so much and I'm so happy we've stayed friends through everything. I miss you, and am so happy that things are starting to look up for you. You've been one of my greatest friends, and we've been though so much together. To all my friends at school, my friends at home, and my friends back in Franklin, in particular, Erin, Ria, Lauren, Emily, Sara, Alana, Julia, Penelope, Raye, Drew, Ronnie, Joe...to name a few, you're the people that are always there to listen, have fun with, party with, hug in between classes, give me a familiar sense of loyalty, or even just there on the couch or in my room smoking a cigarette. These are the simple things I will miss them when we all move on on do our own things. I love you guys. It makes me so happy to know I have so many people in my life that care enough to ask me how therapy was, or how my life is going, to talk about what's going on, people who remember that I'm gluten-free and will go out of the way to find places that I can eat when we go out. I don't think I let people know how much I care about them enough...thought that might be creepy.
Anyways, In light of recent events that I wont go into, I've just been thinking about all the friends I have that care so much about me. You guys are amazing, and I'd do anything for you. You guys really go the extra mile to make me feel like I'm really worth something. I guess I'm just really tired of wasting all of this love and friendship that I have to give on people that want a purely superficial friendship, on people that have no appreciation for anyone but themselves, for people that can't take ten minutes to talk to you about your life, but will go out of their way to point out your flaws. I'm going to miss being surrounded my friendly faces in school, having people go out of their way to steal food for me at Lesley, or just making time out of each day to shoot the shit. It's really important to me.
Looks like Dave and I may be moving into a house together, and we finally can get a break and just be happy in a place that we can call home together, nothing makes me happier. He's been the light of my life, pulled me out of a dark place, and never stops letting me know how awesome, beautiful, strong, and loving that he thinks I am. He says that these people that continuously take me for granted, or bring me down, don't deserve to be my friend. That I'm a "beautifully complicated and very special girl." It's what I've dreamed of my entire life. Someone who loves me for me, and doesn't fight with me over non sense, but helps guide me into the right direction, and just overall makes me a better person. That's what a relationship should be, two people that bring the best out in each other. I'm so lucky that I've found that. We know each other inside and out, finish each other sentences, and are always laughing. It's not a convenient relationship that is superficial, not something I can sail through without ever knowing the person inside and out.
Anyways, thanks guys,
Love, Caitlin
Anyways, In light of recent events that I wont go into, I've just been thinking about all the friends I have that care so much about me. You guys are amazing, and I'd do anything for you. You guys really go the extra mile to make me feel like I'm really worth something. I guess I'm just really tired of wasting all of this love and friendship that I have to give on people that want a purely superficial friendship, on people that have no appreciation for anyone but themselves, for people that can't take ten minutes to talk to you about your life, but will go out of their way to point out your flaws. I'm going to miss being surrounded my friendly faces in school, having people go out of their way to steal food for me at Lesley, or just making time out of each day to shoot the shit. It's really important to me.
Looks like Dave and I may be moving into a house together, and we finally can get a break and just be happy in a place that we can call home together, nothing makes me happier. He's been the light of my life, pulled me out of a dark place, and never stops letting me know how awesome, beautiful, strong, and loving that he thinks I am. He says that these people that continuously take me for granted, or bring me down, don't deserve to be my friend. That I'm a "beautifully complicated and very special girl." It's what I've dreamed of my entire life. Someone who loves me for me, and doesn't fight with me over non sense, but helps guide me into the right direction, and just overall makes me a better person. That's what a relationship should be, two people that bring the best out in each other. I'm so lucky that I've found that. We know each other inside and out, finish each other sentences, and are always laughing. It's not a convenient relationship that is superficial, not something I can sail through without ever knowing the person inside and out.
Anyways, thanks guys,
Love, Caitlin