Super Bass Update (with a side of heartbreak)
Hey y'all!
How is everyone doing?
I know I haven't posted for a while, but to be honest with you, even though I have a lot to talk about, I just don't have any time to actually type it all out.
So, here is a list of what has happened over the past few weeks.
- Got back together with Alberto for two weeks and then ultimately, after my trip to Seattle for Sakura-Con, broke up with him since I was feeling trapped, unsatisfied and depressed by our distance from each other. I believe, ultimately, if we hadn't lived 4,000 miles away from each other, things could have worked out. I feel terrible for breaking his heart and making him feel like I never loved him, but it wasn't what I wanted either...it just didn't make any more sense trying to make it work when it really wasn't. I did the math, I thought about it for days upon days and realized that the next time we could actually try to live and work together it would be 8-some years in the future. It was just too long a time to not know if the relationship would work. I didn't want to live in Orlando and he didn't want to live in Spokane. It was doomed to fail in the first place. I will always care about him and I wish with all my heart he can forgive me someday for being the woman who ripped his heart in two. I am so sorry Alberto. I will always miss you.
- Past the Alberto issue, I have been going to school consistently and this quarter's classes are hardcore. I have had no time to just think anymore...too much homework and too much expected of me. I am so lazy during Spring Quarters because all I want to do is hang out outside and enjoy the warm weather. I am sick of school. I feel so lazy, I just don't care about it anymore.
- So, a few days ago I was asked out by my first Asian man. Not that the Asian part really matters since I would have said no to him (Asian or not) if he wasn't the kind of man I'd want....but anyhoo...yeah, his name is James and he is 1. attractive (sexy Hmong man), 2. funny, 3. understanding and 4. honest. All the things I like in a man. For right now we are just dating, getting to know each other and not officially tied to each other at all. He just left a 5 year relationship with a girl he thought he loved and I just got out of a relationship with Alberto (a man I thought I loved), so we consider ourselves still healing open wounds. We decided to take it very slow and just enjoy each others presences in our lives until the moment we are both comfortable taking it further...but again...no pressure to even ever take it further. But I will say this...the sexual chemistry is DEFINITELY something we need not worry about. XD And....OMG HE'S ASIAN-AMERICAN!!!!! *flails*
- Cut my hair to include bangs and now I have been asked out constantly. What is it about the bangs? Did the bangs change my personality as well? LOL!
Favorite Songs this month:
Robyn - Time Machine
Nikki Minaj - Super Bass
B1A4 - O.K.
How is everyone doing?
I know I haven't posted for a while, but to be honest with you, even though I have a lot to talk about, I just don't have any time to actually type it all out.
So, here is a list of what has happened over the past few weeks.
- Got back together with Alberto for two weeks and then ultimately, after my trip to Seattle for Sakura-Con, broke up with him since I was feeling trapped, unsatisfied and depressed by our distance from each other. I believe, ultimately, if we hadn't lived 4,000 miles away from each other, things could have worked out. I feel terrible for breaking his heart and making him feel like I never loved him, but it wasn't what I wanted either...it just didn't make any more sense trying to make it work when it really wasn't. I did the math, I thought about it for days upon days and realized that the next time we could actually try to live and work together it would be 8-some years in the future. It was just too long a time to not know if the relationship would work. I didn't want to live in Orlando and he didn't want to live in Spokane. It was doomed to fail in the first place. I will always care about him and I wish with all my heart he can forgive me someday for being the woman who ripped his heart in two. I am so sorry Alberto. I will always miss you.
- Past the Alberto issue, I have been going to school consistently and this quarter's classes are hardcore. I have had no time to just think anymore...too much homework and too much expected of me. I am so lazy during Spring Quarters because all I want to do is hang out outside and enjoy the warm weather. I am sick of school. I feel so lazy, I just don't care about it anymore.
- So, a few days ago I was asked out by my first Asian man. Not that the Asian part really matters since I would have said no to him (Asian or not) if he wasn't the kind of man I'd want....but anyhoo...yeah, his name is James and he is 1. attractive (sexy Hmong man), 2. funny, 3. understanding and 4. honest. All the things I like in a man. For right now we are just dating, getting to know each other and not officially tied to each other at all. He just left a 5 year relationship with a girl he thought he loved and I just got out of a relationship with Alberto (a man I thought I loved), so we consider ourselves still healing open wounds. We decided to take it very slow and just enjoy each others presences in our lives until the moment we are both comfortable taking it further...but again...no pressure to even ever take it further. But I will say this...the sexual chemistry is DEFINITELY something we need not worry about. XD And....OMG HE'S ASIAN-AMERICAN!!!!! *flails*
- Cut my hair to include bangs and now I have been asked out constantly. What is it about the bangs? Did the bangs change my personality as well? LOL!
Favorite Songs this month:
Robyn - Time Machine
Click to viewNikki Minaj - Super Bass
B1A4 - O.K.