whoa
so i think today was a good day. even if i were to never see chris again, it was a good day. I got up at about 10:30 or so and cleaned my room took a shower, got ready and hung out with josh, marissa, and chris. he's hot, like way hot. even if he like said that he just wanted to be friends or never wanted to talk to me, it still would be the best time ever. it tought me stuff, like what i want, and like there was silences and they weren't akward, and he held my hand and hugged me, and kissed me goodnight, and wow. even though i got really sick at the end of the night, it still was like the best time i've had with a guy. yes, he did go to the wrong park, but he was forgiven, he was like just so nice to me, and like yeah. i feel better, i feel alot better, i feel comfortable with myself and i feel like i am a cute girl that has alot to offer a guy, and if it were to not work out with chris, that's fine, i know we will definantly be friends. and for the first time i think i would be cool with that, yea it'd be great if it was more than that, but i think i'm feeling kind of laid back about it. even though i was like sooo nervous and uptight before i met him, after hanging with him for about 20 min, i felt so much better. josh seemed to like him and think he was a cool guy, and guess what, oh lord he wants to recruit him to fire crew. i cant believe it, josh and his fire crew, but you gotta love him. got a headache still so im going to go get some sleep.