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isn't it funny how sometimes when you get upset, there is one person you find yourself looking for, and it's the most intense way you have every needed them and they are not there? It seems that everytime you need someone the most you have every needed them, they are not there that very moment. It's funny in a sad and fucked up way because I don't know whether to cry, throw things, or laugh about this. It seems like I don't really know what emotion goes where lately, but I do know that to day when he signed off and didn't come back on, that smile dissapeared from my face and I wanted to cry. I can't believe that smile was still brought there after all this time. I miss him, god I wish I still had his number, I really could use a chat with him too. Anyway back to watching the OC I guess. Oh, and Kat hasn't called back and it is now 6:03, why does part of me still feel suprised?