Letters to lovers.
Laywithme & justforgettheworld.
I'm writing these things because I don't know how much you're in the mood for talking, right now.
First of all, I am so happy and so thankful that you are alive. I do not know what I would do without you, you are one of my closest friends & I love you so very much.
I wish that things didn't have to happen this way, but ironically, I'm glad that they did. I wish there was an easy way out, a way to avoid all of life's problems and find a quicker route to the finish line.. But, I think that we both know there isn't one. Death is the one thing that every person will have in common at the end of the day, but the thing that is often forgotten is that it is the only true sign of permanence in our lifetime. It isn't a cheap escape, or a decision that can be made. There is no turning back.. But, I'm glad that you turned back.
I don't know how either of us have walked this path in life for so long, but I know that with time, we will accomplish our goals & meet our lovers, and know truly, for once, why we have done so. I don't expect the road to recovery to be an easy one, but I know that with time, you will blossom back into the wonderful person I've known all along.
This sort-of thing is always hard to deal with, it's sometimes filled with regret and embarrassment and questions.. It's the kind of thing that you don't think you'll get over. And, truthfully, I don't think we ever will.
We will one day, however, look back upon these days as nothing but tiny bumps in the road. And we'll laugh & smile & cry, talking about how we never thought we'd get through it. We will be thankful that things are as they are, and that they were as they were. There is no doubt in my mind that one day, we will do this. We have to do this. We will do this.
I know that you have walked such a long and strange path through life thus far, but I hope that you never, ever feel alone. If ever again, for the rest of your life, you ever feel alone and tiny and fragile, never, ever hesitate to come to me. Or hopefully, I'll have already come to you. You are loved, and you will never, ever have to feel this way again. This is nothing but another thing that, in time, you will have overcome.
You are an incredible, amazing person. You are going to accomplish wonderful, fabulous things in life, and I can't wait for that to happen. Never, ever forget that you are beautiful, and that you are bigger than all of this; Bigger than anything that you will ever take on in this lifetime. For every step that you take form now on, please remember that you aren't alone. You are fortunate, and intelligent, and blessed. Soon, you will be happy. And I will be right there with you.
I love you with all of my heart.
Be strong.
richelle.