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my lawyer sent me a ream of documents a few days ago. enclosed was a psychological assessment. i remember coming out of there cursing because i acted too composed. the appointment was supposed to take two hours and i didn't want to just go in there and tell the whole truth without being probed. he didn't ask the right questions, so i didn't get to say much. he started giving me these intelligence tests, and i thought, it's okay, i'll just tell him the bad stuff when he's finished. but then he sat me on a computer to answer true/false questions.
"i feel as though i am being controlled."
"i feel that am fatter than most people even though i am a healthy weight."
"i have appeared on six magazine covers in the last twelve months."
f, t, f. etc. click. esc., and then time was up. i was so sulky, because the doctor would think i was too healthy and i wouldn't receive much compensation from the victim's claim tribunal. but um, he made me sound awful.
quotations:
"this 20 year old woman presented in an anxious fashion and her thinking was vague and disorganised. the history she gave was poorly sequenced but it was given in considerable detail..
testing of intellectual function and social comprehension returned a valid result where this young woman was reasonably relaxed and while initially her thinking was slow and poorly organised her concentration and application improved as the testing continued although it had started to wane again by the end.
the testing showed widespread immaturity and distortion of personality development with prominent dependent and self defeating clinical personality patterns and symptoms of borderline personality disorder, major depression and thought disorder. this young woman has clinical sydromes of anxiety, agitated depression and an eating disorder.
the dependent personality is shown in lack of interest, passivity, being primarily oriented towards seeking nurturance and attachment, and in this young woman lacking in the security in her own self assurance to take a more autonomous approach to life. the self defeating personality is shown in a poor development of self image, excessive focus on unfortunate and painful past experience and being self effacing and feeling inferior socially. the borderline personality disorder is shown as a pervasive pattern of instability of mood, self image and interpersonal relationships, including identity disturbance, lack of interests, goals and long term plans and where her relationships are marked by extreme conflict and ambivalence. the major depression is shown by severely depressed mood, feelings of hopelessness, a history of suicidal attempts and ideation, loss of appetite, fatigue and rumination. the thought disorder is shown in disoriented and fragmented thinking, and auditory hallucinations.
..she is now diagnosable with borderline personality disorder and major depression; she has some worrying symptoms of schizoprenic thought disorder that may well have been precipitated by the whole process."
there's more, but, ugh. all that and i thought i'd come across as far too normal.
"i feel as though i am being controlled."
"i feel that am fatter than most people even though i am a healthy weight."
"i have appeared on six magazine covers in the last twelve months."
f, t, f. etc. click. esc., and then time was up. i was so sulky, because the doctor would think i was too healthy and i wouldn't receive much compensation from the victim's claim tribunal. but um, he made me sound awful.
quotations:
"this 20 year old woman presented in an anxious fashion and her thinking was vague and disorganised. the history she gave was poorly sequenced but it was given in considerable detail..
testing of intellectual function and social comprehension returned a valid result where this young woman was reasonably relaxed and while initially her thinking was slow and poorly organised her concentration and application improved as the testing continued although it had started to wane again by the end.
the testing showed widespread immaturity and distortion of personality development with prominent dependent and self defeating clinical personality patterns and symptoms of borderline personality disorder, major depression and thought disorder. this young woman has clinical sydromes of anxiety, agitated depression and an eating disorder.
the dependent personality is shown in lack of interest, passivity, being primarily oriented towards seeking nurturance and attachment, and in this young woman lacking in the security in her own self assurance to take a more autonomous approach to life. the self defeating personality is shown in a poor development of self image, excessive focus on unfortunate and painful past experience and being self effacing and feeling inferior socially. the borderline personality disorder is shown as a pervasive pattern of instability of mood, self image and interpersonal relationships, including identity disturbance, lack of interests, goals and long term plans and where her relationships are marked by extreme conflict and ambivalence. the major depression is shown by severely depressed mood, feelings of hopelessness, a history of suicidal attempts and ideation, loss of appetite, fatigue and rumination. the thought disorder is shown in disoriented and fragmented thinking, and auditory hallucinations.
..she is now diagnosable with borderline personality disorder and major depression; she has some worrying symptoms of schizoprenic thought disorder that may well have been precipitated by the whole process."
there's more, but, ugh. all that and i thought i'd come across as far too normal.