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i reappear merely because i am lonely. it has occurred to me now that the strange conditions which take place inside of me to swirl blackness into melodrama, possessing each body organ, are provoked probably exclusively by loneliness. i feel guilty about it, but it is not boredom so much as desperation. i would probably be alright just for tonight
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small plans first, yes. i seem to have stupidly full days now. against my will. i think i slept for fourteen hours. perhaps more. probably. now i wake into a too-crowded world. i have to meet heidi in the parklands in an hour or so. the air is too crisp for my burnt and asthmatic lungs. she's packing a picnic lunch.
then jason is coming over. with groceries because i ran out of money and he didn't want me to go home to my mums. i will cook for him while he studies. i guess i'll have tomorrow after noon free, but ugh, then the next day we're having this huge party, then the NEXT day road tripping to sydney. i was going to go, but then i said i couldnt be bothered, and now im just confused. i know it will be a decision based on mood.
i thought you wouldnt have the internet there. i'm so glad you do! t was frustrating receiving your email knowing if i replied you wouldnt get it.
i think even though we are sort of mute we actually have a million things to say. lets email each other when we can. its on my schedule for the next few days. good morning baby.x
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