grr...
so yeah, school started this week...it's been ok...for school I guess. It's senior year so that's a plus right? In general, things have been goin kinda up and down in certain places. I'm happy one minute and sad the next. I dunno. It's rather strange how things are developing right now. I love my new friends...but I miss my old ones. It just isn't the same anymore...I'm a different person, and I can't expect them to change with me, so what do i do? I guess I just tend to gravitate toward people who behave more like I do...new friends are good, but old friends are always important. I just want my life to be nice and easy and fun fun fun right now...I don't want anything to worry about or any petty teen shit that goes on. For the most part, I like the way things are...there are always a few things i'd change, like I wish my old friends could hang with my new friends...that would make everything easy, but it just won't happen- the chance will not be given. So why bother trying?? I hate that i'm changing, but I like the person i'm changing into, if that makes sense...I don't like things being so different, but I like what they are...it's totally contradicting.
In other news, I know what I want when it comes to a particular subject. Recently, it's been very clear to me...it has the potential to be something so great, so natural...But it needs time to adjust, and to settle in. This situation has the ability to make this entire senior year a new experience all together. I already started out senior year with an awesome night of fun with a few of my great friends, and an amazing time that i will remember for the rest of my life. I know we could be like that...only time will tell <3
I love all of my friends...old and new...and I'm a very lucky person to know such incredible people, no matter who you are, or when I met you, you are important to me in your own way, and having my friends in my life have turned me into a person that i'm proud to be. i think i'll get off my soapbox now if thats ok :)
Fuck life man...seriously...carpe diem...seize the day. And i have been...to its fullest...I suggest you do the same...but be smart and safe...thats the only requirement
<3
Amanda Rose
In other news, I know what I want when it comes to a particular subject. Recently, it's been very clear to me...it has the potential to be something so great, so natural...But it needs time to adjust, and to settle in. This situation has the ability to make this entire senior year a new experience all together. I already started out senior year with an awesome night of fun with a few of my great friends, and an amazing time that i will remember for the rest of my life. I know we could be like that...only time will tell <3
I love all of my friends...old and new...and I'm a very lucky person to know such incredible people, no matter who you are, or when I met you, you are important to me in your own way, and having my friends in my life have turned me into a person that i'm proud to be. i think i'll get off my soapbox now if thats ok :)
Fuck life man...seriously...carpe diem...seize the day. And i have been...to its fullest...I suggest you do the same...but be smart and safe...thats the only requirement
<3
Amanda Rose