The Empowerments - Part 3.5
Shit!! They have me training on a new program this afternoon so I have to make this a quick post.
So I left off right after my empowerments. I was lying on the rock totally disoriented and vibrating all over. My arms in particular were just humming with the energy. I still felt a little nauseated and I wasn’t thinking too clearly. James was still laid back on the other side of the rock and TAG was staggering back and forth trying to keep up with the energy long enough to finish the work. I had sent Tasha to fetch Karma because I knew she needed to hurry. I was already worried about Karma taking these empowerments so soon after her consecration but now I was also worried about TAG. I had never seen him this drained (maybe drained isn’t the right word but I am not sure what is). He was pale, breathing hard, sweating like mad, and having a heated debate with the forces of gravity. To make it worse I was too far gone to mother-hen watch over either of them.
Karma climbed up on the rock so that she was directly above and to the right of my head. I couldn’t see her very well in that position but I was watching the best I could. She approached Allen - who was standing on the ground at the edge of the rock - and he commented that she had just put up some sort of barrier and needed to try to take it down. Karma was obviously flustered by this. I am not sure if I said it out loud but I commented something to the effect of, “You always do that.” (I don’t know if she was this shielded before the Church or not but I know that barriers were an essential survival tactic of anyone involved in the Church and you (the generic you) made them a reflex rather than a willed reaction.) She concentrated on lowering the barriers for a moment and then TAG began to charge the points she had indicated. I saw a quick motion out of the corner of my eye and I turned to look just in time to see her fall. She sunk straight down from standing to sitting without even acknowledging it as best I could tell. She was still sitting up though and TAG had his hand on her back - she looked okay. I turned away because I was still not very focused and could not maintain my attempted vigilance. The next thing I remember is a loud moan from TAG - it sounded painful or distressed. I turned quickly to see what was wrong and saw him fall backwards against a convenient tree. I jumped up (which took energy and concentration that I am sure did not come from within me) and rushed to catch him. James jumped up too so I assumed he had seen the same thing. I grabbed for TAG - James grabbed for Karma. (James later told me he had seen Karma fall back and that she had gone down fast, striking the back of her head hard against the rock.) TAG steadied himself and made his way off the rock pointing toward Karma and saying, “Help her.” Karma was lying flat on her back, motionless, eyes closed, and not responding to anyone. I told James to hold her feet - he bent her knees in (I am not sure if she actually helped in the movement or not). I placed my hand on her head and tried working through her to James in order to siphon off some over the energy overload. James attempted to ground her by placing his hand over her solar plexus - neither of us had seen where she received her points but apparently that was one of the places. She lurched as if he had punched her in the gut - he quickly withdrew. TAG pointed to her and said “water.” I grabbed the bottle of pool water so quickly it splashed out and hit her face - again she lurched violently. (It wasn’t really funny at the time because I was scared and worried for her but looking back it resembled Linda Blair writhing in response to the Holy Water). I poured some water over my hand and began soothing her skin and sprinkling her down the front of her body. TAG said to pour it down her spine - still not altogether “with it” I stood there for what seemed like 5 minutes but had to actually be a matter of seconds trying to figure out how to pour water down her spine while she was lying on her back. Somewhere in this span of time Karma spoke. “I’m here. . .I’m HERE.” I wasn’t entirely sure she was speaking to us or that our “here” was where she was referring to so I asked her something - “Are you okay?” or “Karma, can you hear me.” - I don’t know what I said exactly. With James’ help she sat up and I proceeded to pour the prescribed mountain swamp water down her back. I backed off and James remained, cautiously supporting her, until she became fully lucid again. There is a picture taken by TAG right after all of this in his journal post.
Poor Tasha just stood by and watched this whole scene with no idea what the panic was about. She never asked either - I have to wonder what she was thinking.
We each slowly regain our footing in this reality while taking a moment to watch the sunset. Then we headed down just before dark. On the way down Allen remarked that he feels I am “ready” or was it “able” - I don’t remember exactly - to administer the points. When I asked him why he thought that, he could not give an exact answer - he said he didn’t know precisely, it was about my yang balance or something. This whole conversation is a little blurry but I thought the yang reference was interesting since he had commented on my intensified yin earlier. I have never considered myself to be particularly chi-balanced. James has had more points than I, but different points. TAG and I discussed whether it was the particular points or something that interacted with the points or what - I wanted to understand what made me ready since I didn’t particularly feel ready but, alas, there is no exact answer to this question - yet.
I can’t remember most of what we discussed on the way back to Allen’s - and I hope Tasha doesn’t remember most of what I do (as there was a lot of discussion about old times all around). We dropped Allen off just after 10pm and got back to our house in Athens somewhere around midnight. I was exhausted and charged up at the same time - as I think we all were. And luckily we all smelled equally rancid so there was no unpleasantness in sitting and talking for a while before making our ways in turn to the shower.
Karma, James, and I sat up until nearly 6am discussing topics ranging from social-anxiety disorder to the Church and points chaud to English literature. It was a fun night.
Karma was up and gone by 2pm on Sunday.
So I left off right after my empowerments. I was lying on the rock totally disoriented and vibrating all over. My arms in particular were just humming with the energy. I still felt a little nauseated and I wasn’t thinking too clearly. James was still laid back on the other side of the rock and TAG was staggering back and forth trying to keep up with the energy long enough to finish the work. I had sent Tasha to fetch Karma because I knew she needed to hurry. I was already worried about Karma taking these empowerments so soon after her consecration but now I was also worried about TAG. I had never seen him this drained (maybe drained isn’t the right word but I am not sure what is). He was pale, breathing hard, sweating like mad, and having a heated debate with the forces of gravity. To make it worse I was too far gone to mother-hen watch over either of them.
Karma climbed up on the rock so that she was directly above and to the right of my head. I couldn’t see her very well in that position but I was watching the best I could. She approached Allen - who was standing on the ground at the edge of the rock - and he commented that she had just put up some sort of barrier and needed to try to take it down. Karma was obviously flustered by this. I am not sure if I said it out loud but I commented something to the effect of, “You always do that.” (I don’t know if she was this shielded before the Church or not but I know that barriers were an essential survival tactic of anyone involved in the Church and you (the generic you) made them a reflex rather than a willed reaction.) She concentrated on lowering the barriers for a moment and then TAG began to charge the points she had indicated. I saw a quick motion out of the corner of my eye and I turned to look just in time to see her fall. She sunk straight down from standing to sitting without even acknowledging it as best I could tell. She was still sitting up though and TAG had his hand on her back - she looked okay. I turned away because I was still not very focused and could not maintain my attempted vigilance. The next thing I remember is a loud moan from TAG - it sounded painful or distressed. I turned quickly to see what was wrong and saw him fall backwards against a convenient tree. I jumped up (which took energy and concentration that I am sure did not come from within me) and rushed to catch him. James jumped up too so I assumed he had seen the same thing. I grabbed for TAG - James grabbed for Karma. (James later told me he had seen Karma fall back and that she had gone down fast, striking the back of her head hard against the rock.) TAG steadied himself and made his way off the rock pointing toward Karma and saying, “Help her.” Karma was lying flat on her back, motionless, eyes closed, and not responding to anyone. I told James to hold her feet - he bent her knees in (I am not sure if she actually helped in the movement or not). I placed my hand on her head and tried working through her to James in order to siphon off some over the energy overload. James attempted to ground her by placing his hand over her solar plexus - neither of us had seen where she received her points but apparently that was one of the places. She lurched as if he had punched her in the gut - he quickly withdrew. TAG pointed to her and said “water.” I grabbed the bottle of pool water so quickly it splashed out and hit her face - again she lurched violently. (It wasn’t really funny at the time because I was scared and worried for her but looking back it resembled Linda Blair writhing in response to the Holy Water). I poured some water over my hand and began soothing her skin and sprinkling her down the front of her body. TAG said to pour it down her spine - still not altogether “with it” I stood there for what seemed like 5 minutes but had to actually be a matter of seconds trying to figure out how to pour water down her spine while she was lying on her back. Somewhere in this span of time Karma spoke. “I’m here. . .I’m HERE.” I wasn’t entirely sure she was speaking to us or that our “here” was where she was referring to so I asked her something - “Are you okay?” or “Karma, can you hear me.” - I don’t know what I said exactly. With James’ help she sat up and I proceeded to pour the prescribed mountain swamp water down her back. I backed off and James remained, cautiously supporting her, until she became fully lucid again. There is a picture taken by TAG right after all of this in his journal post.
Poor Tasha just stood by and watched this whole scene with no idea what the panic was about. She never asked either - I have to wonder what she was thinking.
We each slowly regain our footing in this reality while taking a moment to watch the sunset. Then we headed down just before dark. On the way down Allen remarked that he feels I am “ready” or was it “able” - I don’t remember exactly - to administer the points. When I asked him why he thought that, he could not give an exact answer - he said he didn’t know precisely, it was about my yang balance or something. This whole conversation is a little blurry but I thought the yang reference was interesting since he had commented on my intensified yin earlier. I have never considered myself to be particularly chi-balanced. James has had more points than I, but different points. TAG and I discussed whether it was the particular points or something that interacted with the points or what - I wanted to understand what made me ready since I didn’t particularly feel ready but, alas, there is no exact answer to this question - yet.
I can’t remember most of what we discussed on the way back to Allen’s - and I hope Tasha doesn’t remember most of what I do (as there was a lot of discussion about old times all around). We dropped Allen off just after 10pm and got back to our house in Athens somewhere around midnight. I was exhausted and charged up at the same time - as I think we all were. And luckily we all smelled equally rancid so there was no unpleasantness in sitting and talking for a while before making our ways in turn to the shower.
Karma, James, and I sat up until nearly 6am discussing topics ranging from social-anxiety disorder to the Church and points chaud to English literature. It was a fun night.
Karma was up and gone by 2pm on Sunday.