The Realm of Pyrik: Introspection
Erm... going to try my hand at a different sort of writing, for a change. This is to be read as though it's Pyrik thinking to himself, the more useless and impulsive thoughts that a human being inevitably has discarded.
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Were I to select a single word to describe my state of being, "fatigue" would serve perfectly. I'm tired of this lifestyle, of the seemingly fruitless acts for the greater good I say I act in accordance with. Do I still believe it, or is it stated merely to reassure myself? I can't answer this without without doubt, and that is upsetting. Once, I was firm and confident and concrete in my belief that this system of government that bestows wealth and power to those fortunate enough to be born into it needed undoing, that birth alone cannot determine a person's worth. Now, I'm not so certain. It has lasted this long, operated successfully insofar as it has existed centuries without being overthrown - why should I be the one to spend my life attempting the incredibly unlikely?
I must consider if it's truly worthwhile to spend the rest of my days opposing something I am not likely to change in any significant way. That which I have rebelled against offers a life of easiness and predictability and peace, the life of a noble. No, peace is no longer possible. I could never be at peace with myself, knowing I have accepted and embraced what I know in my heart to be unjust. And what good is living if true peace, the permitter of happiness, is inaccessible? I must persevere. Better that I die following my heart unselfishly and rationally than succumbing to a society that allows mere birth, not hardwork and merit, to reign supreme.
Persevere I will.
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I don't like the product. If I dislike it as much tomorrow, I may be tempted to delete the entry altogether.
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Were I to select a single word to describe my state of being, "fatigue" would serve perfectly. I'm tired of this lifestyle, of the seemingly fruitless acts for the greater good I say I act in accordance with. Do I still believe it, or is it stated merely to reassure myself? I can't answer this without without doubt, and that is upsetting. Once, I was firm and confident and concrete in my belief that this system of government that bestows wealth and power to those fortunate enough to be born into it needed undoing, that birth alone cannot determine a person's worth. Now, I'm not so certain. It has lasted this long, operated successfully insofar as it has existed centuries without being overthrown - why should I be the one to spend my life attempting the incredibly unlikely?
I must consider if it's truly worthwhile to spend the rest of my days opposing something I am not likely to change in any significant way. That which I have rebelled against offers a life of easiness and predictability and peace, the life of a noble. No, peace is no longer possible. I could never be at peace with myself, knowing I have accepted and embraced what I know in my heart to be unjust. And what good is living if true peace, the permitter of happiness, is inaccessible? I must persevere. Better that I die following my heart unselfishly and rationally than succumbing to a society that allows mere birth, not hardwork and merit, to reign supreme.
Persevere I will.
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I don't like the product. If I dislike it as much tomorrow, I may be tempted to delete the entry altogether.