Blithe.

[periphrasis]

No returning and no beginning,
A reminder of undesired poignance,
What was won't be again,
but who's say it could not be better?
More than before?
Pointless ponderings,
The consideration of the improbable,
Recent disappointments were anticipated,
Chanced on the hope it would be different,
Yet this history looks to repeat itself.

And how long will I stand for it?