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im in such a weird and awkward mood. i felt like posting because its been a while. and because i just saw a picture of shelby and kyle from homecoming. i don't know if it was a pang to my heart or a sign of releif? i don't really know. i don't want to know actually. it all just got me thinking, why i'm all of a sudden feeling not good enough for certain boys. i guess it all ties into how i'm feeling a tad jealous of certain friends of mine. well i hate admitting this but i always feel jealous of my closest friends. especially girls. am i not good enough? iw ish people wanted me. i wish people talked about me. i hate not being the center of attention. i don't really know where im going with this. although i know that i should be sleeping. which reminds me of how ive been listening to tegan and sara on repeat. i love their new cd. i cant take it off.
oh jee. this monday was such a good monday. such a good way to start off a week. because this friday is mliw. which i am so anxious and excited for! as well as edge day with have heart verse soulcontrol the mongoloids outrage and various other bands. 300 head limit! be there! i will be with my twin and sam. so excited. this week and weekend will be so amazing (knock on wood). which i just did. ahaha,
anyways. where im going with all this mess. i feel awkwardly jealous. i need a boy. no. scratch that. i feel like i want a boy right now. although as much as i say it. i do want love all over again. ill go through the pain to feel good again. preferably by someone not so much alike to me. if that makes sense. im such a picky person.
i hate this island.
i want to leave.
right.
now.
ready? set. go.
move back to california. "home"
oh jee. this monday was such a good monday. such a good way to start off a week. because this friday is mliw. which i am so anxious and excited for! as well as edge day with have heart verse soulcontrol the mongoloids outrage and various other bands. 300 head limit! be there! i will be with my twin and sam. so excited. this week and weekend will be so amazing (knock on wood). which i just did. ahaha,
anyways. where im going with all this mess. i feel awkwardly jealous. i need a boy. no. scratch that. i feel like i want a boy right now. although as much as i say it. i do want love all over again. ill go through the pain to feel good again. preferably by someone not so much alike to me. if that makes sense. im such a picky person.
i hate this island.
i want to leave.
right.
now.
ready? set. go.
move back to california. "home"