.honestly, growing up is for the birds.
Ya know..I've come to realize that each time I fall asleep, I wake up a day older. It's really quite frustrating. I really feel the need to protest. I wish I could go back to being 12 again. When boys were still yucky, I had no bills to pay and not a care in the world. With no responsibilities and the worst thing I could ever imagine was my mother's face when she got my report card. Honestly, growing up is for the birds. Seems like all I've been doing lately is stressing out. With my college classes getting increasingly more boring and difficult at the same time, trying to get my nephew to get better grades in school and show a little bit more respect around the house, going out shopping for Christmas, all the while remembering that I have to spend on a budget this year and keeping a watchful eye over my niece, it all tends to weigh down on my shoulders sometimes. I'm very fortunate to have youth in my household all the time. They keep me young. I think that having children around me and having their imagination's within the walls of my own home is keeping me young at heart. Not only that, I get to laugh with them at work. Not only are they completely honest, but they live such incredible lives. They see the world in a completely different light. Many of them don't see or feel hatred. Many of them have such amazing abilities to play pretend and imagine a world full of good things. For that reason alone I'm so lucky to have children around me 24/7. I am hoping that the way they see the world rubs off on me. I want to believe that everyone is good. That everyone wants the best for everyone around them. That there is no poverty, that drugs aren't on street corners and that the grafitti on the trains in Fontana is just someone expressing the alphabet.
Somehow I want to go to Neverland and never grow up. I want to live in that era where you don't have a care in the world and no responsibilities. Where life is good, people are great and everything is fun. I want to live in the world where imagination and pretend is what keeps everyone happy. Because compared to how I'm living now, in a world full of responsibilities, it sure seems like a piece of cake. :o)