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i realized that i've been a bit homesick lately. i was telling my mom that all i wanted to do was come home. even if it was only for a day. her response was a typical response that would come only from someone who knows me as well as she does. her reply was "that's a shame. it'll be over soon. walk it off." yup. her answer to everything. even though my father and i never get along, i miss him too. this time i think my mom might be wrong though. i just can't seem to shake the feeling. i want to wake up to no sounds but birds outside my window. no sounds of cars. no sirens. nothing. i miss laying on my back in the front lawn staring up at the stars on summer nights. believe it or not, i actually miss getting stuck behind a horse and buggie while driving into town. i miss taking walks through the woods. i miss being less than 10 minutes from my mother, and 2 minutes from my brother. i miss getting up at the crack of dawn to get fresh coffee from sheetz. i miss stopping "back the road" at my amish neighbor's to buy homegrown vegetables and freshly baked whoopie pies from her little table that she has set up in her yard. i miss stopping at a store for a snack, and having the person behind the counter asking me how myself and all of my family are doing these days. i miss those things that i could never have here. i really need to make that 8 hour trip. soon.
pops
momma
i think i know what's causing it. on saturday i was on my way to work when i looked down at the clock. it read 11:46 am. it was then that i realized that one year ago at that very minute, i was in dewey beach, delaware. it was at the exact moment a year ago, that i got the call from my father informing me that my grandfather had passed away. it was at 11:47 am one year prior, when i walked out into a parking lot in dewey beach, delaware and literally fell to my knees in tears. i miss him. i miss home, because it was his. everything that surrounds me in mifflintown, pa is his. i miss walking out in my barefeet with two pepsi's and a bag of m & m's for he and i to share while we sit on the front porch basking in the sun. we'd just sit there all afternoon watching the cars go by while he told me stories. stories of how he loved my grandmother. stories about my dad. stories about me. stories about how he used to play poker. story upon story until the sun started to set. i miss it. i miss him. i miss his smile. i miss how he would never let me leave the house without a hug and an i love you. i miss how he would always call me his sweetheart. he was last of the two most loving people i have ever known. i miss my pap.
yeah...i need home. soon.
pops
momma
i think i know what's causing it. on saturday i was on my way to work when i looked down at the clock. it read 11:46 am. it was then that i realized that one year ago at that very minute, i was in dewey beach, delaware. it was at the exact moment a year ago, that i got the call from my father informing me that my grandfather had passed away. it was at 11:47 am one year prior, when i walked out into a parking lot in dewey beach, delaware and literally fell to my knees in tears. i miss him. i miss home, because it was his. everything that surrounds me in mifflintown, pa is his. i miss walking out in my barefeet with two pepsi's and a bag of m & m's for he and i to share while we sit on the front porch basking in the sun. we'd just sit there all afternoon watching the cars go by while he told me stories. stories of how he loved my grandmother. stories about my dad. stories about me. stories about how he used to play poker. story upon story until the sun started to set. i miss it. i miss him. i miss his smile. i miss how he would never let me leave the house without a hug and an i love you. i miss how he would always call me his sweetheart. he was last of the two most loving people i have ever known. i miss my pap.
yeah...i need home. soon.