Alone on my birthday

[perfect_touch66]

Happy Birthday to me in a matter of less than an hour.It will be nice to spend my birthday alone though won't it...now seriously, if u think i'm thrilled about being alone u just don't know me at all, the truth is...i told my mom it was ok to work, that we can celebrate it another day, but i'm crushed**never been so hurt in my life...so here I am crying, being the little "brat" that I am right?*i'll be lucky if my dad ever respects me or loves me as much as my older sibling as he continues to yell at me, I know he has alot going on, it just sucks*...so happy fucking birthday to me*-Every year I get 2 birthday cards...1 from little sister, and 1 from Grandma....those two things probably mean more to me than any gift and to get the call today saying...sorry Jessica, i just can't get you a card this year, so please don't wait for the mail*its not going to come*Lets just say it ripps me apart inside...and i know what you're thinking, poor Jessica-->didn't get the card in the mail*but its more than that...Whoever the hell is in charge "up there" has done a fucking horrible job and i commend u for that, for taking the little things I have left to look forward to in this life away...for killing everyone if not by means of death by means of happiness, in my life*Whoever the fuck is "watching over us" quit on me a long time ago..everyone i get close to leaves me, and I'm left alone**Maybe I just need to grow up..I'm sure everyone has gone through alot of shit in their lives its just....its my birthday***
So tomorrow I'll get up...make myself a cute little cake, light my own candles,and make a wish.....a wish for you*

Thank You Megan for wishing me a happy birthday....i love you more than you know*BFF