And I'm Feeling Good
I feel like I've been walking around in a haze of happiness and contentment this past week. I've been very busy at work and at home, and I feel like I can never make much of a dent in my To Do list. Normally looking at my ever-growing To Do list stresses me out, but it's not getting to me right now. I think I can attribute this peacefulness to a few factors:
1. This partnership. A few weeks ago I told the Fiance I needed some help, and he has really stepped up despite the fact that he's been working 12-13 hour days and has had walking pneumonia the past five weeks (just diagnosed recently). He used to come home from work and immediately disappear into the Man Cave to deflate from a long day at work, and he's mostly given up his Me Time to help out more around the house with chores and with the babies. It's reassuring to know I'm going into this marriage with someone who is willing to make some sacrifices when it comes to crunch time.
2. Time with the babies. It's a well known fact that pets are therapeutic. When things get a bit crazy at work, I just stop and give Fufu a good pet and cuddle, and I'm instantly calmer, but Lucky is turning out to be mental aloe in ways that I hadn't expected. It's true that the puppy is taking up more of my time than I had anticipated. With everything else that's going on, I've mostly had to give up on entertaining myself with books, tv, movies, magazines, and cooking, and while I thought I would regret making those sacrifices, I'm finding that the time now spent with Lucky is just as entertaining.
We spend a lot of time outside. She is a small dog with a small bladder, so we go out every few hours, and there is no cajoling or coercing Lucky to pee or poop. She meanders into it in her own sweet time, and I'm loving getting to know our little corner of the South while I wait for her: the lush colors, the vibrant flora, the variety of insects, the bird song, the blessed heat and humidity. I haven't spent so much time with my own thoughts since I was a teenager, and I feel like it's done me a world of good.
3. Body focus. I'm back to doing yoga twice a week. I tried to cut down to once a week, but the carpal tunnel symptoms have flared up again, so twice a week I wake up an hour earlier so that I can fit the extra session of yoga in. One of these sessions is a hot yoga class where they crank up the heat to 95+ degrees and you sweat it out. I revel in the intense focus it gives me on my physical being.
I've also recently changed up my workout schedule due to a broken toe that was too painful to run on, and the fresh schedule has me looking forward to the exercise rather than dreading it.
I hope I can draw out this bliss for a while longer, but even if not, I cherish it now.
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