Recollection ( year's summary )
Alot can happen in a year...
The year before,
I was free. or at least I thought I was...
I was courted then bounded unceremoniously...
Who knew being in a relationship felt like forced labor?
The year before,
the naive and gullible self...
was betrayed and abused in the most unconventional way...
I miss my naivety,
for it showed that I believe in the promise of happiness
I miss my gullible nature
for it proved that everyone is trustworthy at the end of the day.
My past self holds eyes that shine with optimism
She saw good in all those around her
Not once did she doubt others and herself
She saw that every possibility holds good intentions.
Now, I wish for that girl to take my place.
Kill my present self and let the past take its place.
My current state has left me bare and vulnerable
Now, hope and dreams are for the weak and abused
Wants and desires are for the wealthy and greedy
Feelings are like a gold plated leaves
It may appear blissful but no one can see the deterioration of the person inside
until nothing but a shell will be left of me.
I now feel like everyone can be a traitor
No one holds good intentions towards their neighbor
There is no true freedom but death
No one is trustworthy enough to hold my heart
Resistance against a damned fate is futile
All hope is not lost when there was no hope to begin with;
thus nothing can be lost.
Only a handful of people in the world can I consider my true friends
Those are the people, no matter then distance, are worth protecting and fighting for.
These are the people worth continue living this damned existence for.
They are worth the time and effort, no matter how ridiculous the request maybe...
True love is for the brave and risk takers...
If you're not willing to risk it all, don't bother trying;
you're not ready for something like this...
It doesn't mean that if you gave your all and your best shot,
that you'll get what you want.
You can only hope that luck would be by you side.
Better befriend and make good acquaintances with pain and sorrow
For they would always welcome you with open arms at the end of everyday.
Not all your suitors are your true love
Not all gentlemen are actually gentle or men
They may be weened to be proper and respectful
but don't be fooled;
they may have the best intentions but sadly paired up with the worst executions.
Remember the words "sisters before misters";
appreciate and cherish those who had stood by you
through heart break and silly napkin runs.
Not all nice guys fall for you;
unfortunately for me, they're just nice and caring
they worry for you and say lots of nice things
but they still won't look at you as something more
this kinda makes you wanna take a chance on bad boys.
Grades are useless if you can't get the job done right and on, preferably, ahead of time.
Family is a group of people you're stuck with;
the key to surviving is to find someone inside who understands and supports you without question.
Positive feelings like happiness, joy, especially, love
These are precious and fleeting
Which kinda makes them an ass
Making us get tortured, used, and abused
just to experience that one moment of bliss??
I'm contentedly residing as Torment and Neglect's new roommate
at least, they'd still be there when I wake up in the morning
(Torment gets the paper while Neglect makes the breakfast)
So far, this comes to mind...
I'm rather excited and terrified to know what happens next...
So before anything happens,
I've decided to put my heart in a venom coated glass display
Filled with the toxic gas
and surrounded by electrically charged barb wires
and mutant chimeras in the toxic moat
Yes, they can try to look and touch, if they survive...