Viva Las Vegas
I realize I haven't posted in forever - as it is I rarely ever use my computer since I got iPhone - in fact this post is coming to you live from iPhone!
I'm in Vegas with my family and despite the squabbles that come standard with any family vacation, I've had a really great time. I'm actually ahead - cash wise at this point. I had found a book of "forbidden knowledge" as they called it that included how to actually win at slots. I've only won about 20 dollars in totals but that's better than being under right? I even used my winnings to buy iPhone a bitchin' rose red case. I'm considering calling her Rosalie now.
I seemed to be slowly being seduced back into wonderland. I'm currently reading a darker retelling of Alice's tale while periodically reading the original on my phone (I love free apps!). I even recently YouTube searched the old "Adventures in Wonderland" show from the 90s and - no joke - can trace a pretty big part of who I became from it.....weird.
In the meantime, I'm happy - even if my family is trying to make me feel otherwise. If anything I've slid into a really good place these last few days - I'm really begining to enjoy who I am and the person I'm becoming. Not to sound like a theripist but today it hit me that I don't give myself permission to experience my emotions - whenever I do my family is quick to dismiss me and my "drama" and get upset. I think the problem is I allow them and me too in a way too discredit my emotions. So for what it's worth today I gave myself licence to experience it. If I'm angry or excited or bored or obsessed - Im offically allowing myself to feel it and express it - regardless of however it comes across - so this got unexpectedly preachy - but it's what I wanted to say so I'm owning it - no appologizes!
All that aside I've had a truly memorable trip and with only a few west coast days left I need to soak up as much west coast sun as possible cause I'm told it's still raining in NYC :-0
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