haha doing what u do best = "overanalyzing" isn't it? ok that's a lot of questions. crying made me feel better? absolutely not. nothing could be more depressing it's a vicious cycle upset --> cry cry-->upset. it's not that i "choose not to express them" it's that i don't feel a "need" to. would i rather others kept their feelings to themselves? no, not really. i mean if it helps them then whatever. i definitely have been psychiatrist b4 and hated it but as long as it doesn't get too out of hand i'm just being a friend which is fine. what is it i fear? i definitely am not thinking "i'm not gonna care as much as other people" this was kind of as a result of the whole desensitizing. I just think I saw a dead man, and his organs being pulled out of his bodies and didn't flinch - saw my dog dead and freaked out. i think that's a product of society more than "just me." how many dead people do u see in movies/tv. shit watch "don't be a menace in south central while sipping juice in the hood" or something like that and 50 ppl die in the first 10 minutes....and u laugh.
doing what i do best = thinking. you didn't flinch when u saw a dead man - has nothing to do w/ product of society. it just doesn't bother you - it was for medical purposes- and ur ok w/ that. dog dead - there's personal attachment w/ that - u didn't know the guy on the opporating table.
ok that's a lot of questions. crying made me feel better? absolutely not. nothing could be more depressing it's a vicious cycle upset --> cry cry-->upset. it's not that i "choose not to express them" it's that i don't feel a "need" to. would i rather others kept their feelings to themselves? no, not really. i mean if it helps them then whatever. i definitely have been psychiatrist b4 and hated it but as long as it doesn't get too out of hand i'm just being a friend which is fine.
what is it i fear? i definitely am not thinking "i'm not gonna care as much as other people" this was kind of as a result of the whole desensitizing. I just think I saw a dead man, and his organs being pulled out of his bodies and didn't flinch - saw my dog dead and freaked out.
i think that's a product of society more than "just me." how many dead people do u see in movies/tv. shit watch "don't be a menace in south central while sipping juice in the hood" or something like that and 50 ppl die in the first 10 minutes....and u laugh.
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you didn't flinch when u saw a dead man - has nothing to do w/ product of society. it just doesn't bother you - it was for medical purposes- and ur ok w/ that. dog dead - there's personal attachment w/ that - u didn't know the guy on the opporating table.
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