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So...
I keep getting myself into this situation where I find the most amazing guy ever and he just wants to be friends.
alright.
no problem.
i keep telling myself that next time it wont happen. and whoops. it happens.
so all i can do now is completely strip myself of anything that will allow me to have feelings towards people and i should be fine.
right?
is that even an option?
i just wish for once people would leave me alone and let me fuck my own life up, instead of helping me.
everyone is always trying to help, but none of them could possibly try to understand me. i am super complicated.
i was having so much fun.
life was amazing.
no one will stop me.
i will stay happy.
i will be chrissy.
i will be numb.
i will be what i am.
a divine child of God who will get through this again
and again
and again
and again.
when will it end?
I keep getting myself into this situation where I find the most amazing guy ever and he just wants to be friends.
alright.
no problem.
i keep telling myself that next time it wont happen. and whoops. it happens.
so all i can do now is completely strip myself of anything that will allow me to have feelings towards people and i should be fine.
right?
is that even an option?
i just wish for once people would leave me alone and let me fuck my own life up, instead of helping me.
everyone is always trying to help, but none of them could possibly try to understand me. i am super complicated.
i was having so much fun.
life was amazing.
no one will stop me.
i will stay happy.
i will be chrissy.
i will be numb.
i will be what i am.
a divine child of God who will get through this again
and again
and again
and again.
when will it end?