Life
So...today is the day after christmas and I am sitting next to my grandma who is yelling very loud about a CAT.
i dont know how I can ever let a boy in my house to be with my family. i dont know if anyone will understand our life of chaos.
I cant wait to leave, but then i miss it all when I am gone.
I miss the way I know that an hour cant pass without someone saying something ridiculously rude and annoying.
I want to be able to make everyone calm and happy, but it will never happen. I dont know how to solve this problem. it is something i have come accustom too. and that is sad.
I want my boyfriend to love my family, but it seems so impossible. because really got to know my family, they would probably think: why would I want to be a part of this.
and that is sad. and i feel bad for saying it.
I went to Andy's church for Christmas Eve service.
He looked amazing in his sweater....
and his monologue at the beginning of the night was so passionate. i wanted more than anything to be in God's presence and not have to worry about anything. He has such a passion for God. He understands the importance of having God the number one in his life and that is just.....beautiful.
Erin came home. I needed Erin. there is no way I could deal with my crazy family without someone there for me to go to. I love Erin, because I know no matter what she will always be there for me and I will always be there for her and we can depend on each other. I can depend on her. I love Erin like a mother loves her child. she looks at her with an adoration because she is beautiful. Erin has a beautiful soul and I wish she could see that. I wish she could see that she IS following God's beautiful and amazing plan. Dont worry Erin....you havnt messed a single thing up. you havnt done anything wrong. Time will only tell why God does what he does and you just have to remember that he has the whole world in his hands. And we are together for a reason. I pray for you that you will be filled with assurance from God in all you do.
i miss daniel.
i am friends with tristan again.
and I cant wait to go home...is that bad?
I love you all and so far my life couldnt be better because of each and every one of you.
yes you donna.
love,
chrissy
i dont know how I can ever let a boy in my house to be with my family. i dont know if anyone will understand our life of chaos.
I cant wait to leave, but then i miss it all when I am gone.
I miss the way I know that an hour cant pass without someone saying something ridiculously rude and annoying.
I want to be able to make everyone calm and happy, but it will never happen. I dont know how to solve this problem. it is something i have come accustom too. and that is sad.
I want my boyfriend to love my family, but it seems so impossible. because really got to know my family, they would probably think: why would I want to be a part of this.
and that is sad. and i feel bad for saying it.
I went to Andy's church for Christmas Eve service.
He looked amazing in his sweater....
and his monologue at the beginning of the night was so passionate. i wanted more than anything to be in God's presence and not have to worry about anything. He has such a passion for God. He understands the importance of having God the number one in his life and that is just.....beautiful.
Erin came home. I needed Erin. there is no way I could deal with my crazy family without someone there for me to go to. I love Erin, because I know no matter what she will always be there for me and I will always be there for her and we can depend on each other. I can depend on her. I love Erin like a mother loves her child. she looks at her with an adoration because she is beautiful. Erin has a beautiful soul and I wish she could see that. I wish she could see that she IS following God's beautiful and amazing plan. Dont worry Erin....you havnt messed a single thing up. you havnt done anything wrong. Time will only tell why God does what he does and you just have to remember that he has the whole world in his hands. And we are together for a reason. I pray for you that you will be filled with assurance from God in all you do.
i miss daniel.
i am friends with tristan again.
and I cant wait to go home...is that bad?
I love you all and so far my life couldnt be better because of each and every one of you.
yes you donna.
love,
chrissy