No Inertia
So, I have so much to update about, details to fill in and write about, but no energy to do that in the least.
I'm mostly over my jet lag, which is good, I guess. I was supposed to go back to Japan last Tuesday but postponed it because of everything. Last weekend I got involved with JASV's Matsuri and got to speak a lot of Japanese and got to meet a bunch of Japanese that live in the area. Reiko, a really nice lady who took me under her wing was really great at listening to me and helping me to ask around about jobs and stuff.
Mika's back in Boston and has been for the past two weeks, but she hasn't let anyone see her. She said that she's okay with me visiting on Monday, but I am mixed about going because I know it's not going to be easy at all. I know I will enjoy seeing her, but I'm still kind of worried about the issues with her and her mom and everything. That's going to be tough to walk in to.
See? Just starting writing this entry and I feel all lethargic and aware of the fact that I am just an object at rest, one with no forward intertia. I need to decide if I'm going to stay in America, or pursue work in Japan. I need to make decisions that are important and that effect me for the rest of my life. But for the meanwhile, I'm just sitting here, seemingly doing nothing.
I did think of a cool line for a poem, though. "You didn't have me at 'hello', you had me by 'goodbye'." I dunno, despite sitting around and doing nothing, I've very little creative output. Been playing video games and cleaning up is about the extent of what I have been doing. I'm unhappy with want to move forward, but at the same time I have no idea where that would be, or in what direction I should head.
I'm mostly over my jet lag, which is good, I guess. I was supposed to go back to Japan last Tuesday but postponed it because of everything. Last weekend I got involved with JASV's Matsuri and got to speak a lot of Japanese and got to meet a bunch of Japanese that live in the area. Reiko, a really nice lady who took me under her wing was really great at listening to me and helping me to ask around about jobs and stuff.
Mika's back in Boston and has been for the past two weeks, but she hasn't let anyone see her. She said that she's okay with me visiting on Monday, but I am mixed about going because I know it's not going to be easy at all. I know I will enjoy seeing her, but I'm still kind of worried about the issues with her and her mom and everything. That's going to be tough to walk in to.
See? Just starting writing this entry and I feel all lethargic and aware of the fact that I am just an object at rest, one with no forward intertia. I need to decide if I'm going to stay in America, or pursue work in Japan. I need to make decisions that are important and that effect me for the rest of my life. But for the meanwhile, I'm just sitting here, seemingly doing nothing.
I did think of a cool line for a poem, though. "You didn't have me at 'hello', you had me by 'goodbye'." I dunno, despite sitting around and doing nothing, I've very little creative output. Been playing video games and cleaning up is about the extent of what I have been doing. I'm unhappy with want to move forward, but at the same time I have no idea where that would be, or in what direction I should head.