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I had a little freakout in the car today, fueled by too much caffeine and hormones. Plus some frustration at the grocery store, and car problems I can't afford to fix, and the lawsuit that I have no idea what to do with, and general money problems, and not getting enough work done on the contract when I seriously need to be billing for 40 hours a week, and missing the application dates for a couple of FEMA jobs, and my sister's failing marriage due to her alcoholism, and not signing up for medical coverage through the state yet because I can't afford it, and not being in therapy because I can't afford it, and not exercising even though I have the time and a Wii fit, and not cooking enough...
So driving home from the store I just started yelling curse words, and then laundry listing as I did above.
The list actually was a bit smaller than I thought, and some of it is major stuff that I can't do anything about (sister) and a lot of it is just little stuff I need to deal with and then it's fixed. I don't have a major illness, I still have a job, I'm going to see my friends soon...
Sometimes I just need to let it all out and then it's not as bad as I thought.
Plus then I went over to Sam's to help him clear the last bits out of his apartment before he moves in with Katie and I got a bunch of fucking sweet stuff. More than the soldering iron and the jigsaw he gave me the other day - now I have a circular saw, a belt sander, and ANOTHER dremel with a flexible shaft attachment!! Fucking SCORE dude I am excited.
So not a bad day all around. Plus I think for this tabletop planning exercise I'm going to try to craft an actual board game so it's more fun. If it doesn't work we can abandon it and do some less-structured scenario planning but hey, who wouldn't like to play a board game and get paid for it? Yeah!
Also I totally scored on a Wii Band Hero setup. 3 guitars, microphone, drums and a Van Halen game for $50!! I might play it tonight a bit. Then we're doing 2 for Tuesday Papa Johns (artichoke hearts and sun-dried tomatoes as toppings HELLZ YEAH) and watching the high-def copy of TRON I downloaded last night.
So yeah. Despite some shit going down I'm feeling alright. Woo!
So driving home from the store I just started yelling curse words, and then laundry listing as I did above.
The list actually was a bit smaller than I thought, and some of it is major stuff that I can't do anything about (sister) and a lot of it is just little stuff I need to deal with and then it's fixed. I don't have a major illness, I still have a job, I'm going to see my friends soon...
Sometimes I just need to let it all out and then it's not as bad as I thought.
Plus then I went over to Sam's to help him clear the last bits out of his apartment before he moves in with Katie and I got a bunch of fucking sweet stuff. More than the soldering iron and the jigsaw he gave me the other day - now I have a circular saw, a belt sander, and ANOTHER dremel with a flexible shaft attachment!! Fucking SCORE dude I am excited.
So not a bad day all around. Plus I think for this tabletop planning exercise I'm going to try to craft an actual board game so it's more fun. If it doesn't work we can abandon it and do some less-structured scenario planning but hey, who wouldn't like to play a board game and get paid for it? Yeah!
Also I totally scored on a Wii Band Hero setup. 3 guitars, microphone, drums and a Van Halen game for $50!! I might play it tonight a bit. Then we're doing 2 for Tuesday Papa Johns (artichoke hearts and sun-dried tomatoes as toppings HELLZ YEAH) and watching the high-def copy of TRON I downloaded last night.
So yeah. Despite some shit going down I'm feeling alright. Woo!