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[pendra]

Nathan asked me out officially again.
Not that we weren't anyway.
But it's nice to have officialities.
I just made that word up.
I have a day to "decide".
Even though I know what my answer's gonna be.
So yeah.

I miss him.
I miss seeing him at one a.m. just because.
But I see him at school and we smile at each other.
Still not the same.

I went home sick today.
Puked in second hour.
Went home during homeroom.
Migraines suck too.

Haley still hates me.
That hasn't changed.
Jessica's pretty cool about everything.
I think she's cool.
Enough.

I don't think I know my "place" in the high school anymore.
Emily and Jitters are gone.
I shouldn't go near Nathan when Haley's there.
I get the most nasty looks from her.
Like I'm fungus.
Great.

I think I just need another quick break from things.
Which sounds retarded because I just got done with Summer vacation.
Stupid me.

I can't do anything right.
Darn.
I wish I had gone to church tonight.