Believe it or not, the POV that I've had the hardest time writing was Dean's. I really feel like he has it worse of anyone. Clarksmuse had to bully me into going back and writing his POV for this fic.
This is gonna sound wierd. First time I read this I was majorly freaking out about school work (the dreaded database), like crying and giving up freaking out, and this made me feel better. I think it was one of those 'It could be worse' moments.
I'm trying to finish my NaNoWriMo, and then work on the next three Special Projects at the Same time. If I get them done, I'll resume regular posting as soon as I can in December.
But... I kinda like how you broke me...katelennonNovember 30 2007, 20:23:00 UTC
I know it's probably all wrong and stuff, but I *like* it and at the same time can't bring myself to read it in pieces.
I love how you're stepping out and doing something that I haven't seen you do before (that you haven't, I probably just haven't read all your stuff, YET) and so yes, it's painful, but well, this 'verse isn't puppied and kittens. It's hard and painful and that is what makes all the sweet beats that much sweeter. It's hard won and cherished and I will now confess that I hug the 'Dean unpacks Chloe's apartment' very close and pet it. Because it's such a moment of normality and to me, all the more precious.
I will now shut up. Go back to writing. I respect the call of NaNoWriMo, but secretly, I long for more Special Projects. I'm just bull-headed, what can I say?
Re: But... I kinda like how you broke me...pen37November 30 2007, 21:13:44 UTC
Oh wow. You know, I really treasure feedback like this.
(((hugs you)))
I'm glad to know that you guys like this. It means a lot to me. Plus, right now I'm struggling through trying to take Dean and Chloe through a story arc in which they *heal* from all this trauma. And it's not easy.
In my imagination, when I dreamed the whole story arc (high points, start to finish. I'm filling in detail as I write) I imagined this story. then *bam* they were all better and going at it like bunnies.
That's not happening. And treating their healing proscess in a realistic way is almost harder than writing the stuff that broke them.
And knowing that you loved the domestic stuff makes it a little easier. Because knowing that the moments of normalacy are treasured, makes writing them, within the healing process, so much more rewarding to me.
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So thank you for stopping my freakout with fic.
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Like, stick a knife in my I'm done, breaking my heart.
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I love how you're stepping out and doing something that I haven't seen you do before (that you haven't, I probably just haven't read all your stuff, YET) and so yes, it's painful, but well, this 'verse isn't puppied and kittens. It's hard and painful and that is what makes all the sweet beats that much sweeter. It's hard won and cherished and I will now confess that I hug the 'Dean unpacks Chloe's apartment' very close and pet it. Because it's such a moment of normality and to me, all the more precious.
I will now shut up. Go back to writing. I respect the call of NaNoWriMo, but secretly, I long for more Special Projects. I'm just bull-headed, what can I say?
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(((hugs you)))
I'm glad to know that you guys like this. It means a lot to me. Plus, right now I'm struggling through trying to take Dean and Chloe through a story arc in which they *heal* from all this trauma. And it's not easy.
In my imagination, when I dreamed the whole story arc (high points, start to finish. I'm filling in detail as I write) I imagined this story. then *bam* they were all better and going at it like bunnies.
That's not happening. And treating their healing proscess in a realistic way is almost harder than writing the stuff that broke them.
And knowing that you loved the domestic stuff makes it a little easier. Because knowing that the moments of normalacy are treasured, makes writing them, within the healing process, so much more rewarding to me.
Thanks so much for the feedback.
((hugsyou))
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