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I am coming to terms with the idea that some day I am going to die, and that most probably that will just be the end of me. That's ok. I think I can learn to accept that.
I have a difficult time expressing myself when speaking with another person. My mind is always running around in circles, thinking of a million different things and sometimes forgetting what I'm trying to focus on. I find myself struggling to follow the conversation and keep in mind what I'm waiting to say in response. It is chaotic, a jumble of words and thoughts and feelings that leave me unable to say what I truly want to say.
But I am gifted with the ability to speak my mind and express my thoughts through my written words. It is a gift, because not everyone has this ability. I don't want to squander what I have been given.
It seems that life is always a struggle. It takes hard work to become the person you believe yourself to be- and hard work to maintain that persona. But it's worth it, obviously. It's funny how you can *know* something, and yet not really understand it. I've heard all of these words before, I already knew all of this. But I didn't really get it.
I think I get it now. I don't, really, 'cause I'm sure that in another years time I'll *really* get it, but that's ok. Everything is copacetic.
I have a difficult time expressing myself when speaking with another person. My mind is always running around in circles, thinking of a million different things and sometimes forgetting what I'm trying to focus on. I find myself struggling to follow the conversation and keep in mind what I'm waiting to say in response. It is chaotic, a jumble of words and thoughts and feelings that leave me unable to say what I truly want to say.
But I am gifted with the ability to speak my mind and express my thoughts through my written words. It is a gift, because not everyone has this ability. I don't want to squander what I have been given.
It seems that life is always a struggle. It takes hard work to become the person you believe yourself to be- and hard work to maintain that persona. But it's worth it, obviously. It's funny how you can *know* something, and yet not really understand it. I've heard all of these words before, I already knew all of this. But I didn't really get it.
I think I get it now. I don't, really, 'cause I'm sure that in another years time I'll *really* get it, but that's ok. Everything is copacetic.