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i had a really wierd dream last night. it was about my best friend from high school, jordyn. i haven't spoken to her in about 3 years because she didn't acknowledge my wedding. i know that sounds crazy. and i'll try to explain myself.
jordyn and i were like sisters for about 6 years starting when we were 15. of course, when i moved to georgia we kind of grew apart, but we still kept in touch with one another and we'd see each other when i'd go to nashville. about a year before ray and i got married, jordyn just kind of stopped being around. she never responded to any e-mails, returned any calls, nothing. i heard through the grapevine that she got a really great job at reunion records actually getting to sign artists with the label, like picking which artists they would sign. so i'm sure she was really busy with work and i totally understand that. not a problem. in fact, i admired her for the fact that she worked her way up to that position so quickly. anyway, i sent her a wedding invitation. i want to make one thing clear: i did not EXPECT her to come. i understand it's a pain in the ass to go out of town for a wedding. i would have been thrilled if she showed up, but i didn't expect it. what i did expect was a card, a phone call, an e-mail, for her to show up at my shower in nashville.............anything! nothing. absolutely nothing. and it hurt. so i haven't tried to maintain our relationship since. i heard she got married last year and i received no notice or invitation. and that hurts, too. we always talked about how we'd be there for each other on important days, like our weddings. and i never meant to go back on my word. but i think it was beyond my control.
so anyway, my dream was that somehow i saw jordyn and she asked why i was mad at her. and i explained exactly what i said above. she said the reason that she didn't come to my wedding was because she and mike got married the same day. now i know that's not true because i think they just got married last year and it was a stupid dream, but now i'm thinking maybe i should get in touch with her and give her a chance to explain. but yet my goodman bullheadedness overcomes me and won't let me do it. i'm torn.
if i give in, i'll post more later.
jordyn and i were like sisters for about 6 years starting when we were 15. of course, when i moved to georgia we kind of grew apart, but we still kept in touch with one another and we'd see each other when i'd go to nashville. about a year before ray and i got married, jordyn just kind of stopped being around. she never responded to any e-mails, returned any calls, nothing. i heard through the grapevine that she got a really great job at reunion records actually getting to sign artists with the label, like picking which artists they would sign. so i'm sure she was really busy with work and i totally understand that. not a problem. in fact, i admired her for the fact that she worked her way up to that position so quickly. anyway, i sent her a wedding invitation. i want to make one thing clear: i did not EXPECT her to come. i understand it's a pain in the ass to go out of town for a wedding. i would have been thrilled if she showed up, but i didn't expect it. what i did expect was a card, a phone call, an e-mail, for her to show up at my shower in nashville.............anything! nothing. absolutely nothing. and it hurt. so i haven't tried to maintain our relationship since. i heard she got married last year and i received no notice or invitation. and that hurts, too. we always talked about how we'd be there for each other on important days, like our weddings. and i never meant to go back on my word. but i think it was beyond my control.
so anyway, my dream was that somehow i saw jordyn and she asked why i was mad at her. and i explained exactly what i said above. she said the reason that she didn't come to my wedding was because she and mike got married the same day. now i know that's not true because i think they just got married last year and it was a stupid dream, but now i'm thinking maybe i should get in touch with her and give her a chance to explain. but yet my goodman bullheadedness overcomes me and won't let me do it. i'm torn.
if i give in, i'll post more later.