good Lord i need help...
ok so i am sitting here trying to study for english and i can't. there is just one thing in my mind. on my mind. in my brain. everywhere. and it scares me. because i have never felt this feeling in my entire life. im shaky. nervous. worried. whatever verb you wanna use go ahead. i really dont know what to do about it, everyone is telling me to just say it out loud but i can't and thats a given. i have contemplated this in my head about a billion times and no way works. if i don't say it, then i will never know. Yet if i do, and i get nagative feedback, it will probably crush me. and everyone is being so positive, urging me on and rotting me ahead and stuff, they say it will work out, that it can happen, that if i say it now before its too late it will be better than later on, but i honestly don't know what to do, i mean i have it tough on this. don't take me wrong though, its not like i am obsessed, that would be crazy of me, its just that i feel strongly for this. and im afraid that if i say it, it will come across as obsessive and crazy but it really isnt. i dont know, i guess this is something i need to seriously think about.
but other than that i have had a good week. schools not that bad, except for mcmullin which scares me. he put all the girls up front for some odd reason. tuesday i went with frank and julia bowling and we went and had dinner afterwards. then wednesday i went to youth group with kent, ryan, bryan, deanna, casey, and a lot of other people. i got to see shannon and christina which i was happy about and met everyone. the group was great and i really enjoyed it. brocks dad is so awesome <--haha and i want to go from now on. and today i went with jane and mike andwe went to the restaurant for a while, then we ate mexican food and came to my house. and now i have to try and concentrate and study. hahaa, thats a tuffy for me at the moment!
but other than that i have had a good week. schools not that bad, except for mcmullin which scares me. he put all the girls up front for some odd reason. tuesday i went with frank and julia bowling and we went and had dinner afterwards. then wednesday i went to youth group with kent, ryan, bryan, deanna, casey, and a lot of other people. i got to see shannon and christina which i was happy about and met everyone. the group was great and i really enjoyed it. brocks dad is so awesome <--haha and i want to go from now on. and today i went with jane and mike andwe went to the restaurant for a while, then we ate mexican food and came to my house. and now i have to try and concentrate and study. hahaa, thats a tuffy for me at the moment!