Dec 06, 2009 22:01
How quickly your visions of life change into illusion.
It is all a dream.
It's living life in REM.
The things that you care about are absent, and you have to start all over again.
It is horrible.
To have to recycle myself.
I am learning everyday by my mistakes.
Aren't I entitled to my fair share of mistakes?
I deserve every fucking bit of what I'm feeling right now.
I deserve to be stoned and beaten.
I am entitled to my fair share of beatings.
I have erased my life completely and this is what's left.
A MIRAGE.
Want to know something?
I lost my soulmate today.
My birthday is in two days and I don't have friends anymore.
I took off work this whole week, so I could go on a trip.
I deserve to be alone.